and its back to reality for nikkychan. after 2 weeks of highs in tpe and sg, im back to the lowest of lows. i realised i was too jam-packed for the 2 weeks that i totally didnt have ample time to feel emo. even till the very last moment i was dragging my overweight luggage out my door to the car, i was still not too emo about leaving home again. then it was till i got into the terminal, had time to sit down, make calls, that i realised, im saying goodbye AGAIN. then it was on the plane, that i started tearing. plus watching Dear John on the inflight entertainment didnt make it any better. sobfest x2.
my body apparently cant believe its back here too. when i got back yesterday, i slept at 3am, and slept all the way till 6pm the next day, with totally no wakeup intervals in between. then today, slept at 2am, and got up automatically at 7am. wtf. and then got back from boise at 5+pm, concussed all the way in the car, and reached home, crashed on the bed, and slept again all the way till 10pm. and now, im half awake and half sleepy, at 11pm. *stones*
ive got photos to put together and upload. but im leaving that till hubs goes to work in afternoon shift, so that i have more stuff to do in the day. many many many dramas to catch up on too. packing myself with stuff to do so that time passes a little faster than normal.
next home trip is supposedly june 2011, next friggin year. i highly doubt i can survive till then. looking at my options and see what i can arrange for myself. I NEED TO KEEP SANE.
on a seperate and random note, i just wanna say - i know what im doing and i know whats right and whats wrong, so stop stressing me in every conversation possible, people. its not helping. i know you guys are just being concerned and i really appreciate it, but just leave me alone for now.
for those who know what im referring to, yes thats what it is.
for those who dont, pls dont ask. thankyou.
:)
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