hubs is far away in koh samui with his friends while i rot away at home. hate hate hate this feeling. totally regret coming up with this decision to go on seperate holidays. this sucks.
my home has become a chalet over this weekend. while hubs is in samui, the parents are in aussie visiting the brother. so, im literally home alone.
fri night - had jas, karin, joyce, jas's mum over for steamboat. luckily jas loves me enough to accompany me for the night at home. i wont know how id fall asleep being all alone in the house.
sat night - will be having my darlings over for a sleepover later. once again, darn glad they are all free to come. make my nights that much easier to pass.
sun night - hubs insists his parents to come over and accompany me. but i dont wanna trouble them really. i know how hard it is for the older folks to get used to a new sleeping environment. seems like jas & gang wants to come back and steamboat round 2. i'll have to confirm with the parents-in-law.
sigh... basically this whole weekend is crap without hubs by my side. now i fully understand the meaning of "等到失去了才來珍惜". feeling awful and miserable all at the same time. everytime i sit around with nothing to do, i just wanna burst into tears.
wasnt easy saying goodbye to hubs fri morning. wasnt even morning, cos the sun wasnt even up. 5am and he was bidding me goodbye while i was half asleep. then i started crying. i dont know why. felt a huge sense of loss, i couldnt explain. after he left, i tried to persuade myself to go back to sleep. 2 hours later i woke up to get ready to work. then i saw the note he left me on my side table. cried again while i was reading. felt utterly miserable and depressed by then.
now im counting down the minutes and hours till i pick him up at the airport on monday. funny how weekends whizz pass all the time, and this weekend, just crawls and crawls its way to monday. my first time actually looking forward to the weekend flying by. my first time hoping monday is tomorrow. better yet, today.
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