☆ n i k k y c h a n ☆

i need a new computer. i fucking hate my current one. ive condemned it to no end. in fact, i wish i could just chuck it down to rubbish chute. i have no idea why it likes to die on me so much. honestly, i did NOTHING to it watsoever. ever since the new computer came, it has died countless times. i lost count of how many times, really. so now my topmost priority in my wishlist is most probably my NEC powermate. never trust pcs that are put together with parts bought from all over simlim sq. thats what my stupid father did. so now got problem, i duno where to send the damn fucking thing to get it fixed. ya cheaper, and lousier too. fuckfuckfuck.

i need a nintendo ds lite in my life too. and my next paycheck goes into that as well. i need something to poke my frustrations away. cos screaming at my now defunct pc doesnt seem to help. i tried smacking the sides of the cpu. doesnt work either. now i wanna douse the whole damn thing in gasoline and set it on fire. tmd. oh yes, i need to ds lite to occupy my time too, when dar doesnt have time for me.

i need a bicycle in my life soon as well. need to start cycling to diff parts of choa chu kang to burn some fats. dont ask me to run. id rather die. so cycling is a better exercise alternative. i need effing lose some effing fats. ive got another 6 -7 months to succeed. kill me pls.

i need a new job, officially. every other day spent in this hellhole is a torture. not the colleagues, but the job itself, and the superiors. ESPECIALLY the superiors. if not for a certain few pple in this nightmarish place, i think i wouldve quit long ago, without even waiting to find another job. and ive got this stupid "PASSION AT WORK" thingy later. some stupid activity to show your 'passion' for work or smth. so if i have no passion, can i dont go? of cos not. fucking waste of time i'll say. im soooo contemplating to just run off without telling anyone. afterall, im quite invisible at these gatherings anyways. dont see the point.