☆ n i k k y c h a n ☆

why do i have so many forked roads in my life in 2008!!

its not even half the year gone and i had to face so many difficult choices. life changing choices to be exact. anyway so now im faced with a MAJOR life changing situation.

my boyfriend is most prob (v high chance methinks) posted to US for overseas attachment for 4 whole months. he can bring his registered wife with him, and expenses for the wife will be fully paid. lodging provided, and extra allowance added to his USD pay for that 4 months.

situation 1:
me have to sign my life away to an eternity of hell him to be able to tag along. then i can spend the 4 months being a couch potato and shopping tai tai and just basically be his 24 hr nanny and have a 4 month long vacation in US. how shiok is that! now comes the scary bit. he flies in sept. august and july isnt exactly a great time to get married. dont wanna have 好兄弟s around when i get hitched. so marriage HAS to happen by june. tats like *gasp!* 2 months away!!!! OH. MY. GOD. no time to plan for ROM ceremony at all.

situation 2:
stop giving ourselves a hell of a headache and just live out the 4 months apart. 4 months isnt exactly VERY LONG. (but not v short also lar) then i wont have to be MRS K so soon. then he will be oh so lonely in US, with no hugs and kisses when he comes home tired after work. nobody to sayang and give him massages and back scratches. nobody to share the streets of US with. and i have no one to sayang me to sleep. oh no, the more i type the more i realise, 4 mths without him is quite unbearable!!

die. im like at a loss lor. actually its not the registering of marriage with him that scares. THAT im prepared for. anyway we alrdy planned to do it next year. its the rush of it, and having to cramp all the planning into 2 short months SUDDENLY. and besides, what will my dad say?!

我的天啊！谁来帮帮我！

im hoping like hell they will postpone the attachment to a later date! that will solve ALL my problems. cos then i dont have to FLY into an ROM so soon. headache!