everyone please go watch BABEL!! its waaaay cool. its like how one minor decision u make in ur life can affect another persons life tremendously, even if these pple are seperated in 4 different countries. (namely Morroco, Mexico, America and Japan) its truly a film worth the awards. also not to mention, brad pitt looks distinctly old in this film.
vivocity is so cold when it rains and ure in the middle of nowhere. drizzles and wind once in a while made it feel like i was in genting for awhile. i thought being hugged in a sweater by ur guy only exists in the fictional world. definitely a moment captured in my memory.
valentines day is coming. wat shall i look forward to?
but one thing for sure i know, i'm yours for the day :)
25 January 2007
ive been kinda addicted to whosgoing.sg. haha been there practically every leaving bitchings for pple and posts in the forum. pretty fun stuff. *grins*
work's been pretty fun. clients are all really nice pple and some are really funny as welll lah!! they are the ones tat pretty much make my work life interesting. if not i'd be stoning at my desk. haha. im starting to like my job :) REALLY.
there was this FHM top 100 event going on outside caltex house today. went down to take a peek at eunice when i went to buy lunch. LOL. still the goofy eunice i know lah. beneath the girly-ness and all, still can "laopo" me. *pengs* haha. yeah she's my laogong since my sec sch days. AWWWW...
recently ive gone from being noobie nikky, to noobie panda and now to princess panda. and all talks about cow grass and bamboo shoots and now coconut trees. my god. im overwhelmed.
i just got back from a short shopping trip at gucci. in love with a tote bag!! and wanna get a wallet. shit and my first pay isnt even enuff. and by the time i get my second pay jamie will be drinking his ass off in australia. DAMNIT!! speaking of which i kinda cant bear to see him go la. no more gollum dear for me to disturb and irritate and no more precious for me to steal. sob. im sadddddd!!!! i wish no one had to go overseas for studies. GRRR. (same to u val)
update to everyone: i will be moving to toa payoh by next week. back to my cousin's room. damn no more walking arnd my room in watever i want to (or rather watever i DONT want to) *grins* tats damn sad. but anyways it kinda halves my travel time to work so i can slp later. so its all good. good bye teckwhye!! GOOD RIDDANCE!!! although SOMEONE's complaining now im so far frm bt gombak and he wont be able to walk home frm here again. haha.
pay coming in a week's time. i need it badly. i need to buy somemore work bottoms and a new work bag. and also straighten my hair. its disgustingly qiao. eeyer!!
so many things to do and so little time. *sigh*
work's been pretty fun. clients are all really nice pple and some are really funny as welll lah!! they are the ones tat pretty much make my work life interesting. if not i'd be stoning at my desk. haha. im starting to like my job :) REALLY.
there was this FHM top 100 event going on outside caltex house today. went down to take a peek at eunice when i went to buy lunch. LOL. still the goofy eunice i know lah. beneath the girly-ness and all, still can "laopo" me. *pengs* haha. yeah she's my laogong since my sec sch days. AWWWW...
recently ive gone from being noobie nikky, to noobie panda and now to princess panda. and all talks about cow grass and bamboo shoots and now coconut trees. my god. im overwhelmed.
i just got back from a short shopping trip at gucci. in love with a tote bag!! and wanna get a wallet. shit and my first pay isnt even enuff. and by the time i get my second pay jamie will be drinking his ass off in australia. DAMNIT!! speaking of which i kinda cant bear to see him go la. no more gollum dear for me to disturb and irritate and no more precious for me to steal. sob. im sadddddd!!!! i wish no one had to go overseas for studies. GRRR. (same to u val)
update to everyone: i will be moving to toa payoh by next week. back to my cousin's room. damn no more walking arnd my room in watever i want to (or rather watever i DONT want to) *grins* tats damn sad. but anyways it kinda halves my travel time to work so i can slp later. so its all good. good bye teckwhye!! GOOD RIDDANCE!!! although SOMEONE's complaining now im so far frm bt gombak and he wont be able to walk home frm here again. haha.
pay coming in a week's time. i need it badly. i need to buy somemore work bottoms and a new work bag. and also straighten my hair. its disgustingly qiao. eeyer!!
so many things to do and so little time. *sigh*
21 January 2007
caught 2 movies in a row on friday night with silly noobie. its been darn long since i did like 2 movies in a row. its insane but fun. haha.
met up with him in the evening, procrastinated abt movies, den headed to shop around. saw sin huey at cine shopping alone. why so pathetic neh. hee. caught Apocalypto. the silly one couldnt pronounce the show name properly lah! kept getting his tongue tied. LOL sucha funny sight. had to help him out when he stoned in front of the ticket counter. (k lar noobie, dont disturb u le lar. haha. later u say i bully u neh.) anyways den after catching a 10pm Apocalypto, we went on to catch a 2am Requiem. it was some german exorcism film. reminded me of my fsv lecture days. cos it was a cosy lil theatre - the cine preview lounge. felt just like our fsv preview theatre. darn i miss my np days. i thought i mite get pretty freaked out by Requiem. but i didnt cos the scenes werent really that freaky. but Apocalypto was kinda unrealistic at a few parts, so much so it ended up funny. LOL. esp the panther. i swear i caught it looking cock-eyed lor!!!!! *laughs like mad* n stupid noobie kept making me laugh during the movie. idiot.
after 2 movies in a row, we chilled at balcony. n amazingly we ended up talking n listening to music till like 8am in the morning!! yes pretty insane. balcony didnt close so we just sat till we were totally drained lar. den ended up like pandas today. haha.
just got back frm St James. woohoo!! very fun place!! n i fell in love with the jazz singer at bellini room. so ROBBIE WILLIAMS!!! he's like the sweet bad boy who can god damn sing. n his eyes!!! *squeals* can electrocute pple lor!!! electrocuted me n meihui. haha both of us were swooning like crazy. im soooooooooooooo gonna go back to st james. pheeweet!
noobie is out playing pool. im very darn tired n sleepy alrdy. tmr still got to go changi airport. dont ask me, ask noobie. pple wanna go see aeroplanes. LOL.
sleepy already lar. gd nites all!!
(im a chirpy girl again!)
met up with him in the evening, procrastinated abt movies, den headed to shop around. saw sin huey at cine shopping alone. why so pathetic neh. hee. caught Apocalypto. the silly one couldnt pronounce the show name properly lah! kept getting his tongue tied. LOL sucha funny sight. had to help him out when he stoned in front of the ticket counter. (k lar noobie, dont disturb u le lar. haha. later u say i bully u neh.) anyways den after catching a 10pm Apocalypto, we went on to catch a 2am Requiem. it was some german exorcism film. reminded me of my fsv lecture days. cos it was a cosy lil theatre - the cine preview lounge. felt just like our fsv preview theatre. darn i miss my np days. i thought i mite get pretty freaked out by Requiem. but i didnt cos the scenes werent really that freaky. but Apocalypto was kinda unrealistic at a few parts, so much so it ended up funny. LOL. esp the panther. i swear i caught it looking cock-eyed lor!!!!! *laughs like mad* n stupid noobie kept making me laugh during the movie. idiot.
after 2 movies in a row, we chilled at balcony. n amazingly we ended up talking n listening to music till like 8am in the morning!! yes pretty insane. balcony didnt close so we just sat till we were totally drained lar. den ended up like pandas today. haha.
just got back frm St James. woohoo!! very fun place!! n i fell in love with the jazz singer at bellini room. so ROBBIE WILLIAMS!!! he's like the sweet bad boy who can god damn sing. n his eyes!!! *squeals* can electrocute pple lor!!! electrocuted me n meihui. haha both of us were swooning like crazy. im soooooooooooooo gonna go back to st james. pheeweet!
noobie is out playing pool. im very darn tired n sleepy alrdy. tmr still got to go changi airport. dont ask me, ask noobie. pple wanna go see aeroplanes. LOL.
sleepy already lar. gd nites all!!
(im a chirpy girl again!)
16 January 2007
What's up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin' bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother? How's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our songI get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Did you know I kept all of your pictures?
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you
bus rides are a killer when ure feeling down. u sit there with ur mp3 playing the familiar tunes, not giving a shit to watevers happening arnd u. u just wanna reach ur destination fast, before u start tearing in ur seat, before other commuters realise and start staring, and by then, u just wish u had stayed home n hid under ur bed covers. that way, u can release ur tear ducts and feel a hell lot better after that. beats holding everything in.
why do i always let myself end up in this situation. a LOSE LOSE situation.
im sick of crying. im sick of being taken for granted. im sick of everything.
why am i always the one who isnt treasured.
ni shuo guo ni yao wo zhen xi ni, ying wei ni zhen xi wo.
na xian zai wo zhen xi ni, ni ne?
u pulled me into this with you, and now ure the one pushing me out.
overnight, everything that i thought was just isnt anymore.
one fine day i might just grow numb to all these and become so damn jaded.
val dear, i wish i was u. i wish i could just dump everything here and fly far far away. that way it wont hurt as much i guess.
and to you, i dont know why im going thru this. but if this is wat u think is best, then so be it. im done with guessing, im done with clinging on, im done with hoping that something good may come out of this. u dont have to prove your point by changing ur msn display pic, and deleting our pic off ur friendster profile. i get it. be happy, cos then at least one of us is gaining smthing from this. i'll just walk away.
i just need to learn to stop crying.
why do i always let myself end up in this situation. a LOSE LOSE situation.
im sick of crying. im sick of being taken for granted. im sick of everything.
why am i always the one who isnt treasured.
ni shuo guo ni yao wo zhen xi ni, ying wei ni zhen xi wo.
na xian zai wo zhen xi ni, ni ne?
u pulled me into this with you, and now ure the one pushing me out.
overnight, everything that i thought was just isnt anymore.
one fine day i might just grow numb to all these and become so damn jaded.
val dear, i wish i was u. i wish i could just dump everything here and fly far far away. that way it wont hurt as much i guess.
and to you, i dont know why im going thru this. but if this is wat u think is best, then so be it. im done with guessing, im done with clinging on, im done with hoping that something good may come out of this. u dont have to prove your point by changing ur msn display pic, and deleting our pic off ur friendster profile. i get it. be happy, cos then at least one of us is gaining smthing from this. i'll just walk away.
i just need to learn to stop crying.
12 January 2007
i've got myself a job!!! yes!!!! no more feeling of brokedom anymore. i hate having no moolah. cant make myself happy. like that day saw a pretty dress, had to think like twice or thrice abt buying it. and guess what?! i didnt buy it afterall. cos i tot im running low so no point spending on smthing i dont NEED.
gonna be working at py's company. we gonna be colleagues!!! i start work next wednesday as a customer service @ apbc offices. (www.apbcoffices.com) i foresee buying some more office wear very soon. and i need a good bag to bring to work lah. these are investments. *grins*
i also foresee high travel and lunch costs. *pouts*
nevertheless!!! im glad i got myself a job!!! :)
im gonna be a busy office lady once again.
gonna be working at py's company. we gonna be colleagues!!! i start work next wednesday as a customer service @ apbc offices. (www.apbcoffices.com) i foresee buying some more office wear very soon. and i need a good bag to bring to work lah. these are investments. *grins*
i also foresee high travel and lunch costs. *pouts*
nevertheless!!! im glad i got myself a job!!! :)
im gonna be a busy office lady once again.
09 January 2007
have u felt so miserably misunderstood that it hurts?
a third party will never understand the emotional torture i went through i guess. maybe in the eyes of others, im just a girl who once again, gave up on something or someone cos of the very unavoidable NS. yet i know how untrue that is. i was there for him throughout the toughest period (BMT & OCS) and it became my own toughest period to crawl through as well. if NS was the simplest reason to give up on a relationship, i should have chosen the toughest period to spare myself the agony, no? why would i have clung on and decide to leave everything behind only after he commisions and is now an officer? which thereafter entitles him to alot more time out of camp to spend time with me.
why does everyone blatantly think that its a girls fault if theres a breakup when the guy is still in the army. is it also not the fault of the guy at the end of the day? im not saying theres no part of me to blame. but it honestly takes two hands to clap. two to make, and two to break.
u guys fear the commitments of a relationship when ure enlisting. a girl fears them just the same. "how to cheat on you when im stuck in camp 5 days a week!?" I BEG TO DIFFER. REALLY. it kinda makes MIA (missing-in-action) alot easier for u guys. maybe the male species would now be ranting in disagreement. but dont the "duties" and "field camps" make helluva good excuse during times u dont wanna be found? i think so.
im not making a sweeping statement here. i know there are the minority that wouldnt stoop so low. afterall, it takes alot for a girl to really go through the whole 2 years of NS life with you. everyone has their fears, who doesnt. after u get pricked by a rose, its hard to not pick up the next rose with caution and check for thorns that could potentially prick u again. once bitten twice shy. but at least give the next rose a chance. u nv know, u might fall in love with roses all over again.
no particularly special reason for this entry.
just feeling deeply misunderstood at this point of time.
this may not clear my name, but it puts my thoughts across i guess.
at the age of 21+ im still hoping for a fairytale love story. who doesnt?
keeps the whole innocence of falling in love.
love isnt a game, feelings arent for manipulating. u dont make someone fall in love with u just to see if u can. u make someone fall in love with u, becos u believe they will go to slp at night telling themselves "he/she is the best thing that happened to me."
when can i tell myself that?
u can only push a girl away for so long,
until she walks out of your life on her own.
so be careful, and make sure this is what you want.
because once she turns around, she isn't coming back.
a third party will never understand the emotional torture i went through i guess. maybe in the eyes of others, im just a girl who once again, gave up on something or someone cos of the very unavoidable NS. yet i know how untrue that is. i was there for him throughout the toughest period (BMT & OCS) and it became my own toughest period to crawl through as well. if NS was the simplest reason to give up on a relationship, i should have chosen the toughest period to spare myself the agony, no? why would i have clung on and decide to leave everything behind only after he commisions and is now an officer? which thereafter entitles him to alot more time out of camp to spend time with me.
why does everyone blatantly think that its a girls fault if theres a breakup when the guy is still in the army. is it also not the fault of the guy at the end of the day? im not saying theres no part of me to blame. but it honestly takes two hands to clap. two to make, and two to break.
u guys fear the commitments of a relationship when ure enlisting. a girl fears them just the same. "how to cheat on you when im stuck in camp 5 days a week!?" I BEG TO DIFFER. REALLY. it kinda makes MIA (missing-in-action) alot easier for u guys. maybe the male species would now be ranting in disagreement. but dont the "duties" and "field camps" make helluva good excuse during times u dont wanna be found? i think so.
im not making a sweeping statement here. i know there are the minority that wouldnt stoop so low. afterall, it takes alot for a girl to really go through the whole 2 years of NS life with you. everyone has their fears, who doesnt. after u get pricked by a rose, its hard to not pick up the next rose with caution and check for thorns that could potentially prick u again. once bitten twice shy. but at least give the next rose a chance. u nv know, u might fall in love with roses all over again.
no particularly special reason for this entry.
just feeling deeply misunderstood at this point of time.
this may not clear my name, but it puts my thoughts across i guess.
at the age of 21+ im still hoping for a fairytale love story. who doesnt?
keeps the whole innocence of falling in love.
love isnt a game, feelings arent for manipulating. u dont make someone fall in love with u just to see if u can. u make someone fall in love with u, becos u believe they will go to slp at night telling themselves "he/she is the best thing that happened to me."
when can i tell myself that?
u can only push a girl away for so long,
until she walks out of your life on her own.
so be careful, and make sure this is what you want.
because once she turns around, she isn't coming back.
08 January 2007
Breathe Again
Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going when you face a brand new day
It used to be that way, now I just close my eyes and say
I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I'll breathe again
Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck it's a brand new start that might just work my way
No need to walk away, don't wanna live on life's replay
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn
I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I'll breathe again
Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going when you face a brand new day
It used to be that way, now I just close my eyes and say
I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I'll breathe again
Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck it's a brand new start that might just work my way
No need to walk away, don't wanna live on life's replay
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn
I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I'll breathe again
02 January 2007
HAPPY 2007 EVERYONE!!!!
well, 2006 was a pretty rough ride for little me. many significant events to remember and many i want to put behind me. shall not go into details abt them.
went to zouk to countdown with sam carol ah hwa weizhan n friends. diana n val were there too. freaking $38 for entry and only 1 free drink. zouk became a mass puking event on the last day of 2006 and first day of 2007. every 2 steps u take, u see 3 pukers around u! how sick is that!! the most poor thing for the night must be edwin n huihao. haha. they paid $38 to come into zouk and see the whole bunch of us helping a very woozy sam out of zouk. their reactions - *jaw drop* "huh? GO ALREADY AR!! I HAVENT EVEN DRINK MY FREE DRINK LOR!!!" hahaha. priceless!! was supposed to head to st james aftertat. but it was dropped n everyone went home. the still-very-awake-and-think-its-very-loserish-to-head-home-so-early me decided to go find val n diana. apparently diana was high but "not drunk". lol so we rotted abit, girly talked abit, before heading to tong shui cafe for supper. afterwhich was homewards.
sigh. the end of 2006 also spells the end of my 21 year old era. im not ever gonna be 21 again!! WTF!!!! oh nooo im getting OLD!!!!! *whams head against wall* bring me back to sweet 18!!!! old old old old. im an old woman. sigh.
but nevertheless, im sure everyone must hav SOMETHING to be glad abt 2006. for example,"the best thing that has happened to me in 2006 is _____" i know wats mine!!! *smiles* it was you!! Y-O-U YOU!!! you you you you you you... YOUUUU!!!
hmmm who? YOU LOR. hahaha.
oh yes, my very cute gift exchange present was this:
hahaa I WISH!! tats whiskey, sam's little baby. my gift (frm edwin) was the lil cute penguin water dispenser u see at all action city toy stores. haha something i was quite tempted to buy but decided nt to waste the money. haha. glad i didnt buy it now!!!
alright hope everyone spent their last day of 2006 in the best of ways!!!!!
*kisses*
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