☆ n i k k y c h a n ☆

bus rides are a killer when ure feeling down. u sit there with ur mp3 playing the familiar tunes, not giving a shit to watevers happening arnd u. u just wanna reach ur destination fast, before u start tearing in ur seat, before other commuters realise and start staring, and by then, u just wish u had stayed home n hid under ur bed covers. that way, u can release ur tear ducts and feel a hell lot better after that. beats holding everything in.

why do i always let myself end up in this situation. a LOSE LOSE situation.

im sick of crying. im sick of being taken for granted. im sick of everything.

why am i always the one who isnt treasured.
ni shuo guo ni yao wo zhen xi ni, ying wei ni zhen xi wo.
na xian zai wo zhen xi ni, ni ne?
u pulled me into this with you, and now ure the one pushing me out.

overnight, everything that i thought was just isnt anymore.

one fine day i might just grow numb to all these and become so damn jaded.

val dear, i wish i was u. i wish i could just dump everything here and fly far far away. that way it wont hurt as much i guess.

and to you, i dont know why im going thru this. but if this is wat u think is best, then so be it. im done with guessing, im done with clinging on, im done with hoping that something good may come out of this. u dont have to prove your point by changing ur msn display pic, and deleting our pic off ur friendster profile. i get it. be happy, cos then at least one of us is gaining smthing from this. i'll just walk away.

i just need to learn to stop crying.