finally done with my channel u docu drama shoot. whoo! boy was it an experience!
1) glue sniffing scene: they used real glue lor. den i had to tighten the plastic bag before inhaling. but 3 hrs of sitting in front of a few cans of open glue plus fake sniffing (still can inhale some lah) landed me with a headache for the rest of the day.
2) ahlian disco scene: wahh. my hair was literally a-la-MAMASAN! glitter, poofy, and very yellow! duno wat i mean? check out he show when it airs den. i felt so horrible walking arnd with tat hairstyle, IN BOAT QUAY. the stares i got. sheesh.
3) smoking scenes: hooo boy!! tat was one disgusting experience. had to puff out smoke so bobian, gotta inhale lor. but of course i didnt tarek lah!! jus kept it in my mouth n blow out the smoke. had to do quite a few takes till i wanted to puke sia. the aftertaste was damn bitter n i stink like hell. *makes faces* had to eat so many sweets n gurgle so many times. but it didnt realie help much. hmmm.
other scenes were ok. everything was alot of fun. so i enjoyed the experience n i think if i can do this more often, this will become my FREELANCE JOB. haha. yays!
hmmm, gonna meet him later. havent seen him for toooooo long.
okies. gotta go work already.
oh yes, my docu drama will be aired on the 17th Nov. not sure abt the time yet. the title is Hooked. in chinese, Mi Huan Ren Sheng. rmb to catch it! *smiles*
30 October 2005
25 October 2005
*still in a confused state of mind*
just realised school's starting to get real stressful. gotta pia project and study like hell for exams. hmmm. really getting me already.
bought a new hollister skirt today. pretty pretty. i like :)
recently got casted in a docu-drama on channel u. shall keep everyone posted on the details of everything. hope everything goes well there.
gonna start dance at studio wu by start of next month. so i can fufil my dancing addiction in a studio and not at a club. haha. well, its a diff sort of dancing altogether i guess.
teddy bear, sweetness, BAH!
i miss my guy. the one before all this shit.
just realised school's starting to get real stressful. gotta pia project and study like hell for exams. hmmm. really getting me already.
bought a new hollister skirt today. pretty pretty. i like :)
recently got casted in a docu-drama on channel u. shall keep everyone posted on the details of everything. hope everything goes well there.
gonna start dance at studio wu by start of next month. so i can fufil my dancing addiction in a studio and not at a club. haha. well, its a diff sort of dancing altogether i guess.
teddy bear, sweetness, BAH!
i miss my guy. the one before all this shit.
23 October 2005
phuture hasnt expanded!!!!
ya ok, they changed the setting inside phuture to create more space for dancing. but wth, its still packed to the brim lor. there is still no space to dance at all. gotta squeeze n feel sticky bodies against yourself. eee.
but it was fun lah. haha. me mei hui samantha n py all went abit insane. hee. so now im the so called "bush" lah. mei hui named me the "bush". haha. dont ask why plss.
the world is damn small lah. met another pri sch fren of mine at zouk. n he happens to know emman n darius zhu. haha. cos all sji guys. haha. its a small small world.
anw, recently sam met this uber psychotic guy lah. craziest freak i ever met in my entire life. he damn loser lor. like damn damn damn loser. this kinda guy shld just get struck by lightning. sheesh.
baby's off in field camp. no means of contacting him for a whole week. *urghs* im still in a v confused state of mind. like floating in mid air, cant feel the ground. *smacks forehead* i damn canot make it lah.
gonna make a trip down to my to my pri sch building next week to find memories. haha. i miss my pri sch lahh. haha. go there take some pics n mayb post it up if i hav the chance. hee.
gonna go nydc for dinner later. hmm n to think i used to go there so much just to c him last time. i miss those days. the days that i was so darn impt to him. sighs.
*ihateholdingontomymemories.
ya ok, they changed the setting inside phuture to create more space for dancing. but wth, its still packed to the brim lor. there is still no space to dance at all. gotta squeeze n feel sticky bodies against yourself. eee.
but it was fun lah. haha. me mei hui samantha n py all went abit insane. hee. so now im the so called "bush" lah. mei hui named me the "bush". haha. dont ask why plss.
the world is damn small lah. met another pri sch fren of mine at zouk. n he happens to know emman n darius zhu. haha. cos all sji guys. haha. its a small small world.
anw, recently sam met this uber psychotic guy lah. craziest freak i ever met in my entire life. he damn loser lor. like damn damn damn loser. this kinda guy shld just get struck by lightning. sheesh.
baby's off in field camp. no means of contacting him for a whole week. *urghs* im still in a v confused state of mind. like floating in mid air, cant feel the ground. *smacks forehead* i damn canot make it lah.
gonna make a trip down to my to my pri sch building next week to find memories. haha. i miss my pri sch lahh. haha. go there take some pics n mayb post it up if i hav the chance. hee.
gonna go nydc for dinner later. hmm n to think i used to go there so much just to c him last time. i miss those days. the days that i was so darn impt to him. sighs.
*ihateholdingontomymemories.
21 October 2005
i just saw the mtv for tao zhe's ai wo hai shi ta today.
gosh. the EMOTIONS tat i felt. undescribable.
guess i can go be the mtv female lead hor. hmms. my reaction was exactly the same as the girl lah. the trashing n crying. so impossibly nutcase. after watching the mtv today i realised, i still hav my reservations. i still hav my doubts. but there's reali so much tat i can do. friends keep telling to me leave him, and that he isnt worth giving a chance to. ppl, it isnt that simple. its not like i tell myself "im gonna leave this guy" n poof! im over him. i hav feelings oks.
quoted frm a v gd fren:
"hw can he do tt to someone who loves him so much?"
i have no freaking idea. and i will try n find out after his field camp. tats a promise to myself.
i just dont understand. is it THAT difficult to just say "i love you too" ?? u used to tell me that all the time last time, and now, u can tell me "say too many times it doesnt seem that zhen gui anymore." sighs. i duno leh. i realie dun understand wat in the world is going on in that brain of urs. really feel v confused lately. i have heard so much advice frm so many pple its just making me EVEN MORE confused.
im so tired of thinking.
so tired of waiting.
so tired of giving my everything for nothing.
but tired as i may be, i am not giving up on this relationship.
why? the reason is simple:
i love him.
thats all i need to know.
gosh. the EMOTIONS tat i felt. undescribable.
guess i can go be the mtv female lead hor. hmms. my reaction was exactly the same as the girl lah. the trashing n crying. so impossibly nutcase. after watching the mtv today i realised, i still hav my reservations. i still hav my doubts. but there's reali so much tat i can do. friends keep telling to me leave him, and that he isnt worth giving a chance to. ppl, it isnt that simple. its not like i tell myself "im gonna leave this guy" n poof! im over him. i hav feelings oks.
quoted frm a v gd fren:
"hw can he do tt to someone who loves him so much?"
i have no freaking idea. and i will try n find out after his field camp. tats a promise to myself.
i just dont understand. is it THAT difficult to just say "i love you too" ?? u used to tell me that all the time last time, and now, u can tell me "say too many times it doesnt seem that zhen gui anymore." sighs. i duno leh. i realie dun understand wat in the world is going on in that brain of urs. really feel v confused lately. i have heard so much advice frm so many pple its just making me EVEN MORE confused.
im so tired of thinking.
so tired of waiting.
so tired of giving my everything for nothing.
but tired as i may be, i am not giving up on this relationship.
why? the reason is simple:
i love him.
thats all i need to know.
19 October 2005
was talking to cien during work today. cos we were just so darn bored there. we came to the conclusion tat we girls will just do anything n everything for the guy we love, n yet, they somehow dun realie appreciate it. we r just do darn gundu.
1) on our guy, we can spend loads of money n stuff for him n they dont seem expensive. n yet for ourselves. a little bit more is "wah!! damn ex lehh!!"
2) no matter how late we r for school or work, we die die dun wanna take cab. n yet, 5 mins late to meet our guy, "canot let him wait. TAKE CAB!!!" even if its frm one end of sg to the other.
3) when we go shopping, we tend to look at guys stuff more den we look for our own. hmmm.
4) we pack their stuff for them, we cant stand it when their room is messy, we iron n fold their clothes for them. our own room/house is like a pig sty.
hmm, there were lots of other stuff that i just simply cant remember.
sigh. i miss him. whenever im bored at the counter and start to stone, all i can think of is, how sweet he was when he started to zhui me, all the sweetest ever things he said n did. so why?! why did u hav to go n do what u did?! why did u hav to leave such a deep scar in our relationship. the name i saw in your hp just keeps flashing in my mind. i cant seem to put it aside. so many questions and so many whys. field camp till oct 31st. i have another 2 weeks to go before i c him. oh gawd just stab me!!! *bangs head on wall*
k enuff of going crazy. time to change the song on my blog.
now playing Nikky's recomendation: Yang Chen Ling - Ai Mei
niceee :)
oh btw pple, ZOUK REOPENS THIS FRI!!! haha. da jia make ur way down!!!
1) on our guy, we can spend loads of money n stuff for him n they dont seem expensive. n yet for ourselves. a little bit more is "wah!! damn ex lehh!!"
2) no matter how late we r for school or work, we die die dun wanna take cab. n yet, 5 mins late to meet our guy, "canot let him wait. TAKE CAB!!!" even if its frm one end of sg to the other.
3) when we go shopping, we tend to look at guys stuff more den we look for our own. hmmm.
4) we pack their stuff for them, we cant stand it when their room is messy, we iron n fold their clothes for them. our own room/house is like a pig sty.
hmm, there were lots of other stuff that i just simply cant remember.
sigh. i miss him. whenever im bored at the counter and start to stone, all i can think of is, how sweet he was when he started to zhui me, all the sweetest ever things he said n did. so why?! why did u hav to go n do what u did?! why did u hav to leave such a deep scar in our relationship. the name i saw in your hp just keeps flashing in my mind. i cant seem to put it aside. so many questions and so many whys. field camp till oct 31st. i have another 2 weeks to go before i c him. oh gawd just stab me!!! *bangs head on wall*
k enuff of going crazy. time to change the song on my blog.
now playing Nikky's recomendation: Yang Chen Ling - Ai Mei
niceee :)
oh btw pple, ZOUK REOPENS THIS FRI!!! haha. da jia make ur way down!!!
17 October 2005
a new song on my blog... FINALLY! as a fren of kelly poon's i shall just use this song of hers tat i absolutely love. haha. a very nice n touching song that she delivered beautifully on the last day of the superstar competition.
i love the lyrics.
kelly's flying high now. YAY!!! gong xi ni la kelly. i remember u telling me before on the train to town that your dream was to perform at the indoor stadium. u made it.
ok maybe i abit lag with this congrats msg but somehow it just tallys with the song i attached to my blog mah. haha. dun care.
anyway, this weekend was real rough. not gonna mention wat happened but it just made me feel once again, oh so stupid. but sometimes its my stupidity that keeps me sane? i duno. i have this strange strange feeling now.
after i lost trust in this person, how much time do i need to build it up again? i thought i needed tons n tons of time to build it up. i was so wrong.
its just so difficult to stay angry with him. its so difficult to give him the cold shoulder. basically, i love him too much. the fact that i said "i cant believe at one point of time i shared my bf with that biatch" rather den "i cant believe at one point of time i shared this jerk with that girl" tells alot. according to a girlfriend - it says alot that i blame the girl more den i blame him. ya i do. even though she may not hav known that he was attached. i still blame her. and im not afraid to say, i hate her guts.
although i dun realie hav the right to say that cos i have once been in a situation like that n was in her shoes, i still HATE HER GUTS!
u know, if i ever see her, i would most probably threaten the shit outta her n tell her to stay away frm my boy. STAY FAR FAR AWAY.
enough of venting of anger. time to head to bed now.
baby, i love you, still.
i love the lyrics.
kelly's flying high now. YAY!!! gong xi ni la kelly. i remember u telling me before on the train to town that your dream was to perform at the indoor stadium. u made it.
ok maybe i abit lag with this congrats msg but somehow it just tallys with the song i attached to my blog mah. haha. dun care.
anyway, this weekend was real rough. not gonna mention wat happened but it just made me feel once again, oh so stupid. but sometimes its my stupidity that keeps me sane? i duno. i have this strange strange feeling now.
after i lost trust in this person, how much time do i need to build it up again? i thought i needed tons n tons of time to build it up. i was so wrong.
its just so difficult to stay angry with him. its so difficult to give him the cold shoulder. basically, i love him too much. the fact that i said "i cant believe at one point of time i shared my bf with that biatch" rather den "i cant believe at one point of time i shared this jerk with that girl" tells alot. according to a girlfriend - it says alot that i blame the girl more den i blame him. ya i do. even though she may not hav known that he was attached. i still blame her. and im not afraid to say, i hate her guts.
although i dun realie hav the right to say that cos i have once been in a situation like that n was in her shoes, i still HATE HER GUTS!
u know, if i ever see her, i would most probably threaten the shit outta her n tell her to stay away frm my boy. STAY FAR FAR AWAY.
enough of venting of anger. time to head to bed now.
baby, i love you, still.
15 October 2005
just got back frm a late nite movie with edwin jamie n my babe. haha. Deuce Bigalow. hmm it was OKAY. nothing fantastic. just something to make me smile. u know wat else makes me smile? THE CHICKEN LITTLE TRAILER!!!! haha. the one he dances so ever cutely to this techoish trancish song titled Ma-Ya-Hi. haha. my babe remembered the title for me. i addicted to that song sia. CUTENESS!!! haha. anyone who ever gets hold of this mp3 mus so definitely send it to me hor.
hmmm. today hasnt been the best of days. dont wanna harp on it so i shall not talk abt it. i duno whether its a good thing that i see less of my bf cos "abscence makes the heart grow fonder". i just miss him so much sometimes i just break down n cry. ok maybe break down is too big a word. but the feeling of missing someone so much till u cry just sucks. gosh i wish he can be by my side more.
but there is just ONE thing i canot figure out:
1. out of 7 days in a week, u c your bunkmates 5.5 days.
2. u will be confined for the next 2 wkends cos of outfield therefore u will c them for the next 19.5 days.
3. after this weekend, i (and you) hav to wait 19.5 days before we c each other again.
BOTTOMLINE: you still wanna meet yr bunkmates this wkend's SAT NITE?! HELLO!! havent u got enough of them alrdy?!?! sheesh. i just dont get it.
ohwell. wat can i say. so many reasons to get pissed with u. and yet i cant seem to get myself to get pissed at all. it seems impossible to stay angry with u for more den 1 day. i hate myself for being so useless. grrr.
ooh its late! 4am in the morning!! gosh. better head to bed. hee.
*i shall make a wish to the stars tonite.
MAKE SAF CLOSE DOWN!
hmmm. today hasnt been the best of days. dont wanna harp on it so i shall not talk abt it. i duno whether its a good thing that i see less of my bf cos "abscence makes the heart grow fonder". i just miss him so much sometimes i just break down n cry. ok maybe break down is too big a word. but the feeling of missing someone so much till u cry just sucks. gosh i wish he can be by my side more.
but there is just ONE thing i canot figure out:
1. out of 7 days in a week, u c your bunkmates 5.5 days.
2. u will be confined for the next 2 wkends cos of outfield therefore u will c them for the next 19.5 days.
3. after this weekend, i (and you) hav to wait 19.5 days before we c each other again.
BOTTOMLINE: you still wanna meet yr bunkmates this wkend's SAT NITE?! HELLO!! havent u got enough of them alrdy?!?! sheesh. i just dont get it.
ohwell. wat can i say. so many reasons to get pissed with u. and yet i cant seem to get myself to get pissed at all. it seems impossible to stay angry with u for more den 1 day. i hate myself for being so useless. grrr.
ooh its late! 4am in the morning!! gosh. better head to bed. hee.
*i shall make a wish to the stars tonite.
MAKE SAF CLOSE DOWN!
14 October 2005
ooh yess!! internet!! woohoo plus cable tv as well. i love my home now.
but i still miss my own cosy room back in jb. sighs.
been back jb for a day. feels good to be home n pampered. my mum brought me to get a facial done. fwah. luxury sia. lie there n get massaged n get expensive skincare piaked to my face. but it hurt like shit when the girl removed my clogs frm my forehead. my forehead is clogged like hell. sheesh. my face is in a horrendous state lar. sian. just realised i still havent bought my mummy's bday present. gosh i ought to be shot. hmm really hav to shop one of these days.
check out my wishlist! haha. "saf to close down".
hmmm. planning to take a trip with baby after he POP. maybe going thailand? i duno. haha. just a thought. hope it comes true. hee!
recently heard a few of Yang Chen Ling's songs. i like her voice. sweet and yet husky. although its nothing close to POWER but i like it. comfortable. recomendation - Ai Mei. hehe. nicee.
awright. time to go to bed. (i think) gosh. i miss my baby.
`` you are all that i want.
but i still miss my own cosy room back in jb. sighs.
been back jb for a day. feels good to be home n pampered. my mum brought me to get a facial done. fwah. luxury sia. lie there n get massaged n get expensive skincare piaked to my face. but it hurt like shit when the girl removed my clogs frm my forehead. my forehead is clogged like hell. sheesh. my face is in a horrendous state lar. sian. just realised i still havent bought my mummy's bday present. gosh i ought to be shot. hmm really hav to shop one of these days.
check out my wishlist! haha. "saf to close down".
hmmm. planning to take a trip with baby after he POP. maybe going thailand? i duno. haha. just a thought. hope it comes true. hee!
recently heard a few of Yang Chen Ling's songs. i like her voice. sweet and yet husky. although its nothing close to POWER but i like it. comfortable. recomendation - Ai Mei. hehe. nicee.
awright. time to go to bed. (i think) gosh. i miss my baby.
`` you are all that i want.
09 October 2005
03 October 2005
ooh yay. im using a comp in a cybercafe now. haha. so pathetic rite. ook i will be having internet connection in my house veeeeeeeery soon. hang in there!!!
hmmm, "celebrated" sam darling's bday at dbl o on sat nite. happening sia!!! first there is all drunk carol who kept molesting sam n almost pulled my tube top off, den theres sam who couldnt stand properly n kept sitting on the floor, then theres horny cheryl who kept sticking her body me the whole time. *shakes head* wat can i say.
anyway ive been missing my baby lots lately. sighs. supposed to have been able to c him this weekend. den he and his bunkmates happily duno do wat den tadah! CONFINEMENT. sheesh. k lor. gotta wait another week to c him again. GRR i hate the army. hate it hate it hate it!!
okie. gotta go meet my future husband aka aaron for dinner at HOTEL. cos apparently the rich twit onli eats at hotels. my god. i want that life. haha.
counting down the days till i c u again my dear.
hmmm, "celebrated" sam darling's bday at dbl o on sat nite. happening sia!!! first there is all drunk carol who kept molesting sam n almost pulled my tube top off, den theres sam who couldnt stand properly n kept sitting on the floor, then theres horny cheryl who kept sticking her body me the whole time. *shakes head* wat can i say.
anyway ive been missing my baby lots lately. sighs. supposed to have been able to c him this weekend. den he and his bunkmates happily duno do wat den tadah! CONFINEMENT. sheesh. k lor. gotta wait another week to c him again. GRR i hate the army. hate it hate it hate it!!
okie. gotta go meet my future husband aka aaron for dinner at HOTEL. cos apparently the rich twit onli eats at hotels. my god. i want that life. haha.
counting down the days till i c u again my dear.
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