back from ipoh....stopped over at genting a while..tee hee...screamed my head off on the roller coasters n let out some of my surpressed "steam"... hurshurs...
it was so nice to b back in ipoh n "run away" from all the sadness in singapore...after so long i finally got to c my nanny n uncle kenny...missed them so much!!! it was just so upsetting to leave them again....everytime i see them in ipoh...n then have to say goodbye..it just kills me....these are the ppl tat truly love me...when i was still v young...i spent like more than half my time with my nanny n the family...so when my mum wanted to bring me to jb...uncle kenny (my nanny's bro) n the whole family practically watched me slp...n cried the whole nite...cos it was the last nite they could spend with me.....and everytime they tell me tat story of how they all carried me in their arms n watched me slp while all of them teared...i cant help but wanna cry too...cos i can c it in their eyes...yup...they really love me....before i turned my back to walk towards my dad's car from uncle kenny's house...i took a long look at nanny n uncle kenny...they have reali aged quite a bit...now i really miss them.......
although uncle kenny n my nanny arent really blood related family..but i really cant imagine life without them...they are just as close as my blood related family...hmmm or should i say...they are closer to me than some of my blood related relatives in ipoh...cos i know...they already treat me as part of their family...we get to c each other less than once a year...n yet...they even rmb my birthday....*sighs* gosh i really miss them!!! miss them so so so so so much........
xmas will most prob kinda suck this year...i kinda wish i could spend it back in ipoh... but thanks to MOE...i gotta stay in sg...grrrrr...........
its so difficult...so damn difficult to b happy....
its so damn difficult to not think of him...
and when i do? its so difficult not to have the urge to cry...
how did things turn out to be like tis...
how did i become like this....
*sighs*
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