the past 2 days was too scary for me. scary beyond imagination.
for the past 2 weeks i had on off fevers. but nothing beyond fever, so i thought it wasnt so serious. until friday night, also the night before dar leaves for msia, i was having a super bad migraine. i couldnt even move my head the slightest bit, cos it would trigger off horrible vibrations in my head. then, the fever came again. i wanted dar to bring me down to the clinic downstairs. but after some waiting, i realised i had red spots all over my arms and legs. freaked out! dar quickly called A&E and we rushed down to NUH in a cab. was crying all the way there. felt so miserable. dar was trying to cheer me up all the way there, but in his eyes i could see the worry too. once we got to NUH, i was rushed off to the fever facility to be quarantined whereas dar was redirected to register for me. then, i was cooped up in a small room with just a small window at the door. i bawled my eyes out in there. i wasnt allowed to go out and see dar, dar wasnt allowed to come in as well. it was just terrible. all i could do was just stare at the clock ticking away. i wanted to see dar so so so badly. after what seemed like years, (1 hour plus) the doc came to see me. she asked me a series of questions, checked my rashes and wanted to put me on a drip. i freaked out. i managed to get her not to put me on a drip. but she took a huge tube of blood sample. and then i had to wait again. after an hour plus she came back, saying it was negative for dengue but definitely was a viral attack. was sent home with medication and an appt to take another blood sample next week after CNY.
then went home with dar. was left with only a few hrs with him before he left for msia. all the time was wasted in the fever facility where i was quarantined. cried like a baby in his arms. felt so weak and vulnerable at that point. wished that he didnt have to go but it wasnt a choice, cos my condition wasnt completely serious. then i cant rmb how (think it was the medication), i fell asleep in his arms.
next morning, dar sent me home and went off with his family to msia. and it wasnt the end of all the nightmares. dar msged me an hour later on his brother's hp, his hp got STOLEN! fuck. cursed and swore my head off, whilst being groggy and woozy. which means ALL OUR ANNIVERSARY PICS ARE GONE!!! cos they were all in his hp. and!! THE FUCKER STOLE HIS HP TOGETHER WITH MY 1 YEAR ANNI PRESENT FOR DAR - THE GUCCI HP STRAP!!!!! i could fucking twist the fucker's neck if i saw him/her. and his N95 8GB was brand new!!! not even a month old!!! the same case as his HTC touch in genting. dar is so suay sometimes. anyway i curse the fucker to DEATH. may the hand he used to steal dar's phone ROT to no end. FUCKERRRRRR!!! tmd.
anyway so ive been nursing a crazy migraine for the past day since dar left. its sooooo bad i teared non stop. cried and cried cos the pain was so unbearable at times, even after painkillers. i miss dar so godamn much. i need him to sayang me to sleep and care for me. i need his hugs and kisses and his goofy smile. omg i need him so badly right now. and its just been a day plus. i gotta wait till 1 week later before he gets back.
sometimes i hate CNY. its the only time that we HAVE to be apart, whether we like it or not. we went thru it last year, but it wasnt such a long period of time. why did he have to go back just when i fall sick!! and esp when its such a long time. its the time i need him by my side the most, and i dont have him. and without his hp, its even harder to get hold of him.
1 week without him = 1 whole damn year.
fuck, i feel like crap now.
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