for those of you hounding me for the tokyo post, have a lil patience k? im having a lil difficulty uploading the pics so its gonna take some time. but it WILL be done!
sigh, its been so god damn long since i really spent a good time shopping and rewarding myself. every month when my pay comes in, after paying wat i gotta pay off, im left with merely survival amounts. im just so damn pissed off with the money issues. there are so many things i promised to buy for myself the next time i get my pay, but ive not bought. and the list is getting longer and longer, but it doesnt seem like im taking anything off the list! $350 a month is a HELL LOT OF MONEY considering wat im earning (which btw is another "PATHETIC" issue altogether). if not for darling i think i wouldve ended up starving for the next half a month. sheesh. wat kinda life is this.
if not for having darling, life is pretty much hell. nothing much to look forward to everyday. nothing much to feel happy about everyday. no satisfaction watsoever. no feeling of "yes! my efforts paid off and now im getting wat i deserve!" NO. im just pretty much, surviving. hell, ive been eyeing so many new phones and now i cant even afford to spend any extra cash on them. not even the cheapest of the lot! my contract ends in august and i'll be able to sign for a new phone by then, but would i have enough spare $$ by then? i duno. at least my current phone is still alive. if it died, i duno wat to do. ive fell in love with the new LG SHINE. will i own it by august? sigh. i duno either.
wheres the satisfaction and rewarding feeling of getting your pay every month?! i dont feel it!! all i feel is "yea, here comes my pay. and there goes my pay." that seriously sucks.
i think i really need to move on. i cant live like this.
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