up till the very last min, i'd still cling on to that glimmer of hope that u will call or text to say "i'll be there." (idiotic selfish thoughts)
words of wisdom from val dear:
"nikky, statistics are sad"
"they are numbers of jaded-ness"
"why on earth do u want someone u care for to become a number in ur life?"
babe, i'll let u know when the day comes, cos im clueless at the moment. to some, numbers dont mean anything, the more the merrier in fact. to me, i hate to keep count. cos the bigger the number gets, the more times u'll feel like a failure.
i cant help but feel selfish at moments. yes, everyone is selfish. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US. being the selfish us, we'd hope everything would go our way, even if it means someone else has to be the sacrificial lamb. "if its not the other person, it'd be me. and i wouldnt like that. so i'd rather it be the other person." how many times has this thought crossed ur minds. honestly, it has crossed mine before. a couple of times in fact. selfish beings are we.
*overwhelmed with dissapointment.
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