the end of a chase to my dream. now i have lots more time on hand. and lots more "freedom". but i still feel the prick of it. after all, i did chase it ever since a long time ago. well, all im hoping now is that this door kinda closed for me, another door will open somewhere else. i still love to sing and always will.
baby will be heading to brunei for 16 days. tmr nite he flies off. sigh. its gonna be a heck of a long 16 days. but wat else can i do but wait. hmms. sometimes i reali wonder, wat is it abt him that i love so much. and yet the more i tink, the more i cant get an answer. i just love him. smtimes he does the silliest things and i love him still. no reason. i just do. times flies and its gonna be a year in abt 2 months. i never expected myself to be this committed and yet i am. was walking arnd n slacking at the place opp PS. the place i entrusted myself in his care. its under construction. damn. but i so miss the times tat we were "dating". the feeling was just totally indescribable. i liked him. i wanted to be with him. and yet, i was so afraid that i was gonna kick myself in the butt and put myself thru a whole lot of shit again. but i still went with my heart. and im glad i did. cos i know for a fact, he loves me as well.
feeling kinda emo these days. like not those sad wanna cry emo. but just emo. whenever im alone and everythings quiet, i just relive the past all over again in my head. kinda makes me appreciate stuff a little more. hehs. i miss my sec sch days. i miss my jb days. i miss my poly days. i miss my adp days. i just wish that somehow, i can go back and go thru everything again. refresh my memory a bit more before i start to forget.
8th may comes so quickly. and 24th may seems so far. sigh.
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