im recovering, SLOWLY. too slow in fact. i hate to have to cough myself to sleep everynight, and wake up n cough non-stop again. ive been coughing so much tat no whenever i cough, my tummy area aches. like those kind of aching u have after doing a 100 sit ups. cos everytime i cough i wil gek my tummy muscles abit (its a natural thing, dun believe u try) so after prolonged coughing, TADAH! tummy muscles ache. but doesnt mean tat i'll get nice abs u know.

n u know wats the worst thing u abt being sick? THE FOOD! sighs. so many things i cant eat. went din tai fung with my parents the other day and i wanted to eat the hong shao niu rou la mian. basket!! got chilli oil, CANOT EAT. wtf. had to stare at the rest of them dig into their reddish la mian soup, while mine was CLEAR. yucks. nikky no like qing tang lor!

n other bad thing is, u cant kiss your bf. bleah.

but the good thing? i like it when im pampered. *smiles to myself* i like it when he feeds me medicine. somehow the medicine tastes sweeter tat way. hee!

NIKKY IS GERMIFIED!

beware of the weather pple!! its crazy. bloody hell all of a sudden it just poured like mad just now lah. crazy sky. n cos of the crazy weather im sick!!!!!! got a fever a few days back. throat infection as well. den now cough n sore throat. LOST MY VOICE! basically im croaking now. baby called just now den i picked up the phone den he was like "huhh? aiyoh i tot u were crying." psst. haha. nonsense leh. silly boy. he reali thinks im such a crybaby meh. hee hee.

my boy said many many many "i love you"s to me today. awww. haha. he's been reali sweet lately. im turning diabetic. haha. yay! hotel rooms in kl are confirmed. his leave is confirmed! cant wait for our lovey trip. *smiles*

just read 8 days. goodness, li-lin is pregnant again ah! and its a boy this time. heh heh. i love this golden couple lah. allan wu & li-lin. so perfect together. the picture of sage, mummy and daddy is soooo nice. i likeee!! samantha says if she has a husband like allan wu she would lock him at home. i said well, if anyone had a wife like li-lin they would lock her at home too. so why not lock each other at home den?! haha. pretty hot mama - li-lin.



* i dream of a xing fu family like that...

seriously, i feel like spewing vulgarities right now. wat the hell is wrong with my *toot* parents!!!! wah lan ehhh!!!!!!!

i need to vent my anger:

my dad is a stupid ancient baboon who tinks he still lives in the fucking ice age. for god damns sake your daughter is 20 turning 21, i tink she has an inkling wat the fuck to do with her life lor. time for u to step out of your own ice age world n take a look around!! HELLO!!! its the year 2005 and pple dont wait until they're like 25 and above to start dating u know!!! crazy old baboon expects me to stay single till im like 25. *huffs* continue living in your own lil crazy world ok? for your information, I AM HAPPILY ATTACHED!! (for crying out loud)

n wat the fuck do u mean by saying im immature. ive been self independant for the past few months and i dont hav a problem with that. the only reason why i stopped working was cos u asked me to CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES. ok i jolly well will. i hav tons n shitloads of assignments coming up. so freaking leave me alone.

calling me everyday to check where i am. WAT IS THIS?! call me at least once everyday and u complain im not calling home. HELLO!! wake up yr idea la! u bloody hell call me at least once a day den i call u for wat sia. is it that difficult to loosen those strings a little??? yada yada yada, keep saying u care abt me and blah blah blah. if u seriously care abt me, try giving me a little space to breathe ok!!!! and if u seriously care abt me, i would swear u wanna c me happy rite? so wats all this nonsense about la!! i mean, almost EVERYTHING u guys r doing makes me unhappy. so wats the bloody point in it all???

oh, lets not forget my WONDERFUL mother who have this stupid thought that every guy in this whole universe is a horny bastard who wants to sleep with her daughter. thank you very much but im waaaay smarter than that ok. stop suspecting that every guy im with is gonna try to do smthing with me for heaven sakes. and even worse, PLEASE DO NOT SUSPECT THE GUY WHO IS MAKING ME HAPPY AT THIS VERY POINT IN MY LIFE. use your brain n think, MAYBE THERE IS A GUY WHO LOVES ME WHOLEHEARTEDLY after all. did it ever cross your minds that there could be such a possibility!!!!!

have u all thought abt it carefully as to why i sometimes hide stuff from you pple?? let me give u a hint!!! YOU DONT FREAKING LISTEN!!!! I KNOW WHAT THE HELL IM DOING!!!!! *screams*

and it comes down to my wonderful KL trip. unless the two of you can give me a wonderful reason as to WHY I SHOULD NOT GO TO KL, i dont c why i cant go. its not like another osama follower decides to bomb the petronas twin towers ok!!!!! (my dad says robbers.) WAHAHAHHAHA!!!! like as if jb no robbers hor.

im going ahead with my KL trip plan whether u pple like it or not. cos for one reason, I DONT FUCKING SEE WHY THE HELL NOT. esp when its during my sch break.

p/s. ok its my fault that i havent been going back to jb. simply one reason: i hate the travel time. sorry for that lah. i shall make time to go back lah.

there. anger vented. i feel a teensy weensy bit better already.

Let my pictures tell my story...

MOMO!!

bleah. tried to buy tickets for Harry Potter today at GV plaza in the earli afternoon for night tickets. ALL GONE! even the midnight tickets. *sighs* no Harry Potter for me tonite. BLEAH.

gonna meet my boy later. WHEE!! hehe. so happy. hmm gonna go KL after he POPs in dec. *smiles* its been a long 4 months. there were times i almost wanted to give up on this relationship. but im really glad i didnt. he is always the only one that could make me feel butterflies in my tummy. and until now, i still feel butterflies in my tummy whenever im about to meet him. *sighs* guess im quite stuck to him alrdy. hee.

ohwells, haha. gonna go watch teevee! *runs away*

TONIGHT 9.30pm @ Channel U!!! rmb to catch me on teevee worh! hehe. if u happen to read this post after 9.30pm and ure banging your head on table for missing me on teevee den jus set an alarm on your handphone for 12am for the repeat telecast. THANK YOU! :)

went tanning with my sam darling. the sun was shithot sia. me n her were like DRIPPING sweat on the hammock. there were literally POOLS of sweat on the hammock. GROSSNESS rite. haha. i was hoping tat i went thru the human bbq for SOMETHING. in the end, i got dark jus a LEEEEETLE bit. DARN!!! from today onwards i will be going tanning more often den ever. well, at least i got a LEEEEETLE darker la.

met some weirdo tourists. one from new zealand another 2 frm japan. started off with pure boliao conversation to "can we take a pic together?" okie fine. den that horrible guy happily requested to stand between me n sam, den put his sleazy pudgy hand on each of our butt cheeks. FARK! aft the pic i jus siam far far away and went to bathe. those idiots actually expected us to go watch the stupid monkey show with them. KERAZEE! hmmfs.

AFTER tat we went shopping. hooboy. i spent $99 in a day la. freak. haha.

1) adidas sling bag - $35
2) tube top frm FOX - $19
3) shorts frm FOX - $23
4) purple top frm PEPPER PLUS - $22

TOTAL: $99
THE HEARTACHE - PRICELESS.

LOL. went to catch a movie aft that. i dont wanna go into HOW THE HELL WE ENDED UP WATCHING "HOME SWEET HOME". fyi - the movie is a lame scary show. the one feat shu qi n this freaky looking thingy tat climbs pipes n elevators who i found out was lin jia xin. next time, sam is banned from buying movie tickets lor. *makes faces*

just deleted my irritating tagboard and added a haloscan comments box. whee hee hee. so from now on, pls blabber at my haloscan lah k? *grins*

hoo yay. my docu drama trailer is already out. but i didnt manage to catch it wor. been leaving channel u on my tv but still cant catch it. bleah. oh well. rmb to catch it okieee?
Nov 17th (thurs) 9.30pm @ Channel U. heh heh heh.

*yawns* getting tired. still gotta wake up earli pick up baby at pasir ris.

sweet dreamies*

i was somewhere when a bee-like insect stung me. after it stung me, it turned into a beautiful black and yellow butterfly and flew away. i felt a sharp pain in my arm and went to see a doctor. it is diagnosed as a very poisonous sting and there is no cure. i have another 8 days to live.








i woke up.

wat would i have done if i really only have another 8 days to live?

went shopping today!!! whee hee hee.

go shopping when im broke. not a v good thing to do. bought myself slippers and grey contact lens. saw many many more stuff i wanted to buy but didnt buy it in the end. cos cheryl was there to drag me away. haha.

hmmm. met some weirdo guys at the crossing at cine. was walking to the bus stop to go home when i got approached by some dodo bird guys. lets hav a re-enachment. his name is edison.

edison: hi can i have your number?
me: errrr.
edison: just be a fren lah. *shoves hp in my hand* come come, give me yr number.
me: *holds hp* errrrr.
edison: got bf anots?
me: (thinks he would go away) yes!! got bf.
edison: isit. ok nvm be frens la! jus give me ur number.
me: *reluctantly keys in number*
edison: *stares at me* wahh u very cute leh!
me: ...
edison: (to his frens) WAHH!! if she's my gf i sure damn shuang la!
me: ... (getting grossed out)

by this time the crossing alrdy changed green TWICE!

edison: eh how old r u ar?
me: 20
edison: im 18!! (goes on the blabber)
me: *a bunch of idiotic xiao di dis*
edison: ehh where u study ar?
me: uni
edison: WAHHHH. i also not bad leh. at international technology education.
me: (thinks awhile) orh. ITE AH!! *looks away*
edison: haha YAYA!
me: ehh! i gotta go le byebye.
edison: eh i missed call u hor!!!

WATEVER!!! i jus went across the road n saved his number under "edison IGNORE".

im totally not interested watsoever. how come some pple jus cant get the hint!!! imbeciles.

gonna stay home the whole day tmr to finish up my assignment n study for exams.

*hangs myself*

ohmygoodness. gosh gosh gosh. i cant believe it.



i went running today.

got psychoed to go lose some flabs. supposed to go aarons gym to work out. ended up at Ngee Ann track. eew. 2 rounds n im a GONER. haha. hmm i think so too. aiyah i nid time to build up the exercising thing again la. i havent been exercising for too darn long okays. sam, py, meihui n aaron ran like 6 to 7 rounds. i gone at 2. WAT IS THIS!!! haha. yeah i reali need oiling at my joints. i nid to bring out the garang me when i was training loooong ago. haha.

i hope to become:

1) toned. maybe not skinnier but at least TONED.
2) TANNED. haha. i kinda sick of me white white self.

so i shall work towards a goal of total MAKEOVER! haha. shall go sentosa soon to get a nice TAN. hee hee.

also also, time to get a trim n re-colour my hair. i wan back my red red hair.

btw pple, wanna know the new IN cartoon character? no more mickey mouse. its getting boring. now its PINK PANTHER! haha. yes yes. mindustrie opened a branch out at bugis called PINKdustrie. everything is PINK PANTHER!! haha. they've got quite nice stuff there. got myself a nice tee today. it says "theres a new PINK in town" at the back. *grins*

maybe another running session tmr? *pengs*

watched All About Love today again with baby. veri touching. hmm, if i can ever find a guy as devoted as andy lau's role in the movie, i'd die for him. heh.

anyway, my tv debut is on the 17th Nov Thursday at 9.30pm CHANNEL U. remember to catch it if u all have the chance. haha. den again, if u dun wanna c my face den stay away frm the tv set. lol. hmm, but heard tat some of the scenes may get cut cos mediacorp doesnt want drug scenes in sch uniform. hmmm. tats kinda crappy. esp when we worked so hard for the scenes. sheesh. singapore should lax their tv restraints a little.

my home is getting a tad too boring alrdy. computer and tv just aint entertaining me enough. hmmm. i nid some excitement once again. haha. anyone wanna try adding some excitement to my weekdays? hee hee.

hmm, i miss my colleagues. elaine, april, etc. (of cos not EVERYONE) nt gonna mention names. haha. shall trot down to the counter one of these days to pay a visit. hee hee!

shit, im going broke lah. sighs. no money to shop n still wanna shop. im a hopeless case.

oohyes, my auntie gave birth alrdy! baby boy!!! hehe. mummy's gone down to ipoh to pay her a visit. i really wanna go too, but theres exams n projects tat have to be done bac here in sg so no ipoh food for me. darn. heh. oh well, i will go back once i hav spare time. i SWEAR! i superbly miss ipoh food.

hmm getting fat lately. argh. all the late nite snacking n suppers are totally sinful n not helping AT ALL. hmmms. gotta cut down. ALOT!!!!

had a recording session at tinybox last nite. went rather smoothly. haha. finished much faster den i expected. i improved!! according to laoshi n the rest. haha. made me so over the moon. *grins* so at least im not stagnant n going no where. hee hee.

hmmm, recently when im down someone is always there to cheer me up. duno y but whenever im feeling vexed and frustrated, his words somehow always make me feel a tad more an xin. duno how to explain it. it takes the load off my mind, n my heart doesnt feel as heavy. i duno if tats supposed to be a good or bad thing. good, tat someone is always there for me when i nid a lift up. bad, maybe i feel that im getting too close for comfort? i duno. and i dun wanna think so much either. i like things the way they are. so i shall leave it as it is. *smiles*

awrights i gona head to dreamland. nites!

exams coming!! *STRESS* deadlines coming!! *STRESS*

been going out alot lately. esp during those 4 days tat baby was out frm tekong. so fun! hehe. although the 1st day or 2 wasnt reali tat happening. his bunkmates r fun ppl to go out with. his sergeant n platoon sergeant included. ohoh, one of his bunkmates stay darn near me lah. haha.

hmmm, went to play billards with his bunkmates tat day n so happened to c sly there as well. sheesh. the face darn act dao. finefine, watever. his billards skills suck anyway. haha.

came back frm jin qu jiang ytd nite. DAMN KELONG!!!! i could practically guess EVERY award winner. as usual: who come who get lor. hmmfs. lousy awards lah. hmm. n stella had the same hairstyle as me. grrrrr.

hee. got a special xmas cum 5th month pressie for baby this yr. yay! heee. the present is alrdy lying in my cupboard. heh heh heh.

baby POPs dec 7th. finally!!! *grins* but duno where will he be posted after tat. he says it could be sispec. sighs. sispec means lotsa travelling for him lor. which means i gotta tahan long periods of time without him arnd again. n plus if they go places like thailand n taiwan, u tel me, HOW NOT TO WORRY!!!!! *wails* aiya but nothing much i can do also lah. jus wish tat things will only get better.

*bleah*

16th: happy 4 months!
17th: my tv debut!

*LOL*

mygod im in love with my new jay chou collection - November's Chopin.

anyone tries to touch it i will chop off their hands. EVERY song is just pure MAGIC to my ears. ye qu has already melted me. now theres songs like fa ru xue, hei se mao yi, and shan hu hai. *meltsmeltsmelts*

tonite is a darn blue nite. couldnt stop crying at ktv jus now. don wanna talk abt wat happened but now i think i hav more or less made known my feelings to him. how much it has hurt me n how much i think he has changed, for the worse. how i feel that he is putting friends n everyone else in front of me. finally tonite i hear something that really an wei me.

he is serious abt this relationship.
he loves me alot.
he is willing to change for me.
he is very sorry.

i cant explain how much these words put me at ease.

dearest, wo ye shi hen ai ni. i dun wanna lose you. as much as i dun wanna lose u, theres so much tat i can take. i couldnt stop crying at the fact i had to end it when i loved u still. you hav given me another reason to hold on to this relationship but pls dun let me find another reason to leave you. i almost did tonite.

November'sChopin.