8th MAY (SUNDAY) 6pm @ IMM!!!

pls make your way down if u got nothing to do on that day?! haha.

no obligations lah. but ive got thru my 1st round of auditions of SUPERSTAR at mediacorp. the next round is at IMM. its an open stage performance. so anyone can come down. hmm but my reporting time is 6pm. my performance mite be later. god knows wat time later lah. but LATER. heehee.

anyway, sigh. things havent been going well for me again. im like doomed with failed relationships har? i duno. i dun understand. wait. wait how long? this sux. cos during this period, time c r a w l s. i desperately need to occupy myself now.

i want him to come back to me. i dun wanna lose him. i cant. although its jus been a short while im still very much attached to him. he is all i ever wished for. so pls dun take him away from me. i dun like shortlived happiness. ihateit. i dont wanna cry anymore.


i just want him back. thats all im asking for. please.

okay im like venting all my frustrations n getting all angwee with my bb dear. but its most prob becos i miss him like crazeeeeeeeee.
miss him soooooo damn much oks.

i wanna get a freaking full time job asap.

that way i can hurry hurry move house to singapore. THAT way i can c my bb dear more more more more more more. URGHS.
BBDEAR I MISS YOU!!!!



i hate it when i cant contact my boy.

does it take alot to just MESSAGE me saying that u are off work n going home?! i dun even know where the hell in the world u are. and den when i call u n msg u at 10 plus u dun pick up or reply. WHY? BECAUSE U ARE ASLEEP I WOULD THINK. thank u hur.

i love you, but i think this is really hard to digest. sighs. i need to vent my frustrations.

i got him a little present today. was so excited to slip it into his hands. but when i got to tommy jeans i was UNABLE to find him. den my excitement jus D I E D. so i headed back home, disappointed.

bb dear, I LOVE YOU. pls let me keep it that way.

today is the boringest day i have ever spent. ALONE.

i miss my bb dear. i duno why but his breaktimes seem to be getting shorter n shorter. and today he tells me his permanant off day (wed) mite be occupied this week. cos of new stock coming in so he gotta be back at work. DAMNIT. im seeing less n less of him. URGH!!!

oks i know. i should really stop all these mushiness. but im feeling mushy today. cos i miss the silly boy to bits. i wanted to kidnap him home today. im selfish. i want him ALL TO MYSELF.

really feel like making this sticker that says "property of nikky - HANDS OFF!" n paste it on my bb dear. HE IS MINE!!! grrrrrrrrrrr. i wanna kidnap him homeeeeeeeeee.

hmmmms. yet, i always feel that he is holding back quite abit from me. there's always this barrier that keeps me from entering his world. maybe its the past and he doesnt want me probing. but i cant help but wonder, im your girl - so why is it so difficult to just talk to me?

sighs.

i miss my boy.
i miss my boy.
i miss my boy.
i miss my boy.
i miss my boy.
i miss my boy.
i miss my boy.

i want him to myself 24/7, pls? *blinks*

fsv chalet was a blast!!! haha. i am very tired to go into details of how fun it was. but oh boy was it fun. haha. now i know wat carol is like when she is drunk. RATHER SCARY!! *hides*

"uhhhhhhhhhhh......... i want samanthaaaaaaa.................."

WAHAHAHA. omg. damn farnie lah. bth that girlie.

oh i got myself the shock of my life that nite!! i was standing arnd the bbq pit when i received a call with no number. tinking it was my mum or dad, i answered with a very fed-up "hello!?" den everything went madness from there. haha.

caller: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
me: huh? who are u?
caller: I AM SHOW!!!
me: *shock* HUHH!!

yess!!! it was my darling show luo zhi xiang aka small pig xiao zhu!!! haha. he's sho farnieee! duno how to speak eng still die die wanna speak eng. haha. so cute lah he. spoke for awhile den we hung up. DEN, i started screaming. haha. wat an experience. gosh, the sweetness of it.

anyways, tmr is bb dear's audition. hee. GOOD LUCK SWEETS! *muacksmuacks*
im sure u can make it! heehee. i'll be waiting for your good news k? :)

things hav been going awfully well betwn me n him. although there are still some stuff that i get paranoid over, i have learnt to live with it. i know i hav to trust him on that. n trust i will :) i'm so happy i have him in my life now. love him to bits! keke.

i love the way you love me. * addictedtoYou.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! :)

oohwells, yesterday nites celebration was, hmm.. i should use the word - BITTERSWEET.

1st surprise - ERIK! haha. sam told me abt some special guest who was coming to my celebration. i reaaaally didnt expect it to be ERIK!! haha. so farnie. but poor erik felt so old in the crowd at chinablack. sheesh. hehe. oohwells, nvertheless i really hope he enjoyed himself :)

2nd surprise - was dancing on the platform when i got a "happy birthday" from the the DJ. waahhh.. haha so exciting!!! :)

3rd surprise - well i got a happy birthday from wilson. didnt expect it. *shrugs* anyway it was nice to see him again lah. but its really a whole new feeling altogether. hehs.

4th surprise - WAH BIGGEST SURPRISE OF THE NITE SIA!! hurhurs. silly pig decided to surprise me, in the worst way ever. made me cry on my birthday somemore. sheesh. nvertheless damn sweet. love my dear to bits!! heehee.

heading off to fsv chalet later. blogging at esthers place. hee hee. we practically DIED when we got home ytd nite. i was kinda reluctant to leave but i HAD TO. heehee.

wanna thank everyone who made my bday so special last nite:

- my bb dear
- samantha baby
- esther sayang
- carol pooh
- angie
- vivienna
- cheryl
- erik
- yongfui
- patrick (the goon who got pissed high)
- terence
- jaynet n frens
- bryan n gang (sorry i didnt really acc u guys)

and everyone else who msged me. THANK YOU LOADS. loves.

today is a happy happy happy happy happy day!!

:)

shall not go into wat the happiness is all abt. hee hee!!

i love my moo moo!!! he's the bestest of the bestest!!! lovess *muackmuack*

i love it whenever he sees me n goes "aye!! hello!!" hahaha. so heartwarming awww.

*regains my composure*

okss. gonna go for an interview at this company. hopefully i get in den i can get like free tics to events n all!! whee!! aye they cover events at zouk k. dun pway pway. WAHAHS!

tralalalala.

awrights. 21ST IS NEARING PPLE. lalalalala.

ohyes, a huge THANK YOU shout to maisie aidi n mindi!!! thankiew for the lovely wallet!! teehee!!! loveitloads :)

``oh so addicted to your kisses *baby

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER SAYANG!!! *pops champange*

heehee. hope u love your lomo cam dearie :)


cafe cartelled with the girls today. esthers treat! heehee! yummy. allthough most of the time i was attacking sam's pork ribs instead of my green curry pasta (which was slightly saltish) hee! too bad there wasnt any space left over for my vanilla icecream w layers of caramel sauce in between. BIG SIGHS. no worries. i will be back for it VERY SOON. *grins*

went for a movie aft tat with jae. House of Fury. it wasnt too bad u knows. for an amateur director like stephen fung it was really NOT TOO BAD. esp all the droolicious cast. EVEN THE EXTRAS WERE DROOLICIOUS LAH!!! hahaha. *wipes saliva* i couldnt gush at all. had to keep my gushing to myself. haha. cos everytime i gushed, someone beside me would gimme dagger stares. hee hee! silli jealous boy. *smiles* anyway he poorthing lah. was sneezing n sneezing away. think he's falling sick again. *pouts* and i said he was allergic to me. wahahs!

friday's beaching time. BITCHING MAYBE TOO :)

yays i can wear my cherry bikini! *bigsmiles*

the date that i turn 20 is drawing near. hohoho! (21april!)

searched town high n low for a new top for my bday lah. but couldnt find one tat was something i LOVED n was affordable. all so so only. saw one at far east level 1 which was uber sexy. so sexy i canot take it. den i dun tink jae can take it too. haha.

n the earrings i wanted to get at forever21 is GONEEE! sighsss. when u wanna buy it it disappears. when u dun want u see tons of it hanging on display. shucks.

met jo and sandy in town today. wah tat jo. DAMN LOUD LAH! "jong jiin!!!!" wahlau, the whole orchard knows my cheena name alrdy lah. liewss. kekeke.

i love to feel loved. haha. oks im spouting rubbish again :D i dun care. hmmfs! *smilessss*

ohyess! i boycott the kodak machines at far east. bloody bloodsuckers! $2 for a piece when its 50cents at paragon!! pui pui pui. wat rubbish can. hmmfs. if i didnt SO WANNA print my pic i wouldve gave up printing there. sheesh.

i like getting little pinches on my cheek.
i like getting kisses on my forehead.
i like reading msges starting with "baobei".
i like the way you ask if the friends im going out w are males or females.
i like way u sing to me and make me melt.
i like the way you miss me.

the list could go on. but im gonna stop here.

cos i want to type alot more next time :)

*kissestoyou.

i cannot believe some people. so nice of you to take people for granted oks. i hate it when u find stupid excuses. i hate it when u expect us to be there when u need us and push us aside when u dont. time for u to grow up and realise things arent gonna go your way. there is a limit to everyone's endurance and i think u are really pushing it. dont blame us when end of the day we dun give a shit about u oks. in fact, i dun give a shit abt u already. u hav hit my limit. and u asked for it.
biaaaaaaaaaaaatch. to hell with you lah.

ok im done venting my frustrations.

an early happy birthday to vicki the angel.
i miss u. we all do. everytime we gather together i always think, vicki should be here. but im sure u are happy where u are now. stay that way girl. i will always always miss you. we love you.

*sighs*

21st APRIL!!!!!! 21st APRIL!!!!!! 21st APRIL!!!!!!

okies heres the plan girlies. since esther dumped her idea i shall adopt it.

booking a room at a hotel to bunk in. hopefully cheap cheap. near chinablack.

20th wed nite - CHINABLACK! *grins*
21st thur - FSV chalet cum Nikkys birthday hoohaa! *lol*

everyones who's ons for clubbing on wed pls pls pls tag there on the right. (suwoon, yes go and type something n clicks!) hehee.

hmms. i think im insane. hahahahaha! prepare your nicely wrapped pressies oks? *LOL*

i want my birthday to b supeerrrrr happening!!!! cos i love myself :)

NIKKY LOVES NIKKY :) lovessssss.

next topic:

CHANNEL U PROJECT SUPERSTAR!!
i got registered today. auditions are on the 30th at mediacorp. *crosses fingers*

wish me luck ookies ppls!!! HEE HEE.

awright. silly me jus realised something.

sammy baby was supposed to b planning my bday instead of myself!?!?!?!
cos she promised me last yr. ohhmiennnn. WAT HAV I DONE!? hahahaha.

samantha: u r still gonna give me a surprise i dun care! hmmfs. *grinsgrins*

yadayadayadayada. okss im tired of getting high on my bloggy.

RMB!! CHEEEEEEENAAAABLAAAAAAAACK!!!! :D

seoul garden feast today. haha! sooooooo worth the money lah. at least thats wat i feel. yummy food plus loadsa fun! hehe. i learnt a few things from seoul garden.

-nikky's tips to seoul gardening-

1. eat SLOOOOOOOWLY. canot eat too fast. u get full faster.
2. DON'T take too much salad. salad not expensive.
3. DON'T drink too much. makes u full too.
4. have some SPACE left for desserts like ice cream n fruits.
5. watch out for the sotongs. THEY FLY!!!!!
6. the soup gets SALTY after a long time.

i think thats abt it. haha. yummmmmmm.

went walk walk after that to digest. met jae for his break. heehee. *silly grin* oks that guy loves to talk rubbish to me. farnie endearing rubbish. hee hee. den headed to heerens. n samantha got herself smthing she didnt need. (as usual) haha. slippers! oohwell they look nicee. tried to find myself a nice ring to replace my lost one, but couldnt find one that was nice AND cheap. maybe i should really invest on a nice nice one. but im so scared i will lose it lah. like how i lost my last one. sheesh. den headed to lucky plaza n picked up my daaaaarling levis. *mwamwa* ooh i can find waist 26!! oohmy!!! *jumps arnd* hehee. ya anw, headed home after that. suuuuuuuper tired.

and samantha baby went crazy on the 170. started WAVING like a mad girl to those poor drivers stuck in the jam. my god. *hides* like brain malfunction laaah!! and she blames cutie ME for it. say im like causing her some brain damage by talking on the hp with jae. *eyes wide wide* FIND ME LOGIC IN THAT PLSSSS. *rolls eyes*

happy day tmr. i shall look forward to it! whee hee hee!!

*silly smile* :)

oohyes! im FINITO with my specs! *jumps arnd* so happy i dun hav to slog over it anymore. its over n done with! yays. hehe. hmm, but the thot of leaving np really sux. really. i dun really know how to put the feeling to words but it just sux. sighs. im really gonna miss fsv like crazy.

anyways, met jae today. hehe. got treated to lunch/dinner at crystal jade. omg the plate of shanghai fried noodles damn big lah! cant finito. hehe. but the food there was gooooooood. i have found out today his singing is really good. although not professional good but good enough to make me melt when he started singing. =D really. *meltings* i go weak at the knees for guys with a good voice oks. *smiles*

was waiting for my dad to fetch me at the jb customs when i was gonig thru my hp inbox. alot of kept sebastian's msges. *sighs* i kinda miss him. miss having him around. miss having him to just make me laugh. miss his one-shot-three msges. miss him calling me stuff like sweets, sweetest, princess, goddess. miss calling him my ah ta sweetest. really miss him. wells, guess i gotta move on alrdy. he & me = history. a beautiful memory perhaps. but something i gotta keep in my archives now. at least it is a nice memory to hold on to. i miss u ah ta.

friday's screening day. i think im gonna hide in some corner of the convention centre after they screen mine so no one can find me. tee hee. *grins*

*plonks on my bed* so tiring today. had class at tinybox from 2pm till 10pm sia. *wipes sweat* and im sooooo sleepy lah. got back from chalet today den rush straight down to tinybox.

chalet was oh so fun!! haha. you all should have seen how we went mad at cold storage den went mad in the chalet room den went mad EVERYWHERE. esp me n sam. wahaha. we were like having this chicken thawing competition in the loo. so grossified rite? but fun lah! haha. den bbq was a lil disastrous in the beginning. but it got better after that. esp after the honey came. whee! haha. honeyed chicken wings!! oohyess. me sam n esther gonna set up chicken wing shop. sam in charge of thawing, i in charge of poking the satay sticks thru, both of us marinate, and esther stand arnd and show off her cleavage. *GRINS* haha! den after that bbq was a mess. not to mention i was busy on the hp with oily dirty hands lah. (smiles) anw, aft that was cutting the cakey with carol. aiyohs that girly i tell u. *smacks head* u shld have seen her face when she saw her pooh cake n presents. SHE CRIED?! haha. okss lah. gan dong gan dong. den it was rubbish nite from there. haha.

oohwells. hmm im thinking of taking part in project superstar on channel u. shld i? laoshi encourages us to go lah. but, im just scared i malu myself. hee hee. shall update abt this again.

and.... *drumrolls*

my daddy got me a new mp3 player!! whee!!

my new toy -clicks*

love it sooo much!! haha. my new baby i tell u.

oh and it comes with a $50 levis voucher. coolness or wat!! haha. with my new baby toy i earn a new pair of levis that wont go slipping off my ass anymore!! (gloat samantha!!!!!!!)

im jus so high now i tell u. lifeisgreat! *smiles*