ohwell. disappointment AGAIN. i dont understand. i attract horrible guys. but sadly, the attraction is temporary. oohwells. GOODBYE WILSON!!! *wtf handsign*

sighsighsighsighs.

the top it off i had a HORRIBLE dream last nite. shall not elaborate on that. just piss me off MORE. anyway i love this song on my blog now. gets me so HIGH HIGH HIGH!!

i will stop heading down to down to chinablack for some time i guess. go back to good ol' DOUBLE O. hahahaha. ah see how lah hur.

friday chalet. yays yays yays!!!! :)

OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!!

*high-pitched squeals*

Nikky is officially super duper happy like insane can!!!

ASK ME WHY!!

bah i shall tell ANYWAY!! hahahahahahha. *makes crazy faces*

laoshi told me my singing improved again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *squeals*

i cant ANY happier than this. TRUST ME. maybe unless jielun proposes to me. hahahaha!!

OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!! OHMYGAWD!!!

i cant stop!!! *squeals somemore*

im like a GIANT step nearer to my dream. oks im kinda over my head. *grins*

ilovemydream. imgoingalltheway!

nikky dances on the rainbow. HEE!

spongebob outing!

now isnt it fast! the pics are uploaded!! have fun ppls. *smiles*

went to watch spongebob with my cousin n darius zhu n gaybeng chris.

a note to chris: you are getting gayer n gayer n gayer. i think u shld stop working late nights at tanjong pagar. not safe. tsks.

anyways, im glad i didnt have to pay to watch spongebob. i most definitely wouldnt spend money to watch nonsense. funny nonsense though. hahas. and that DARIUS!! omg!!! the horrors of watching spongebob with him!! HE SANG ALOUD TO THE GOOFY GOOBER SONG!!! like reeeeeeeealie loud?! i kept slapping him. haha. (on the arm lah) oh oh! and to note, we were given lovers seats at cine. i think its cos me n my cousin used cine's anniversary vouchers for the tics so they gave us the best seats in the house. the lovers seats in cine is damn comfy lah! i need to find someone to cuddle up with in there lah. hee hee! so shld chris. he was trying to cuddle darius. ohmygawd. oh and u all shld just c the gayest pics tat they took. SUPER GAY MY GDNESS!! shall post them up when i get the chance. teehee!

oh and yesterday, i walked past tommy jeans AGAIN. *grins* he was working. looked so darn tired sia he. talked to him awhile den left. cutenesssss. *gush*

me n my cousin went to redeem like $20 worth of cocoa trees chocolates. GETTING FAT TIME! haha. i'd better watch wat i put in my mouth though. a bit at a time neeekeeeee. (that brings some memories.. hmmfs..)

wednesday is chinablack nite girlies. get your clubbing gear out and lets PARTY!!!! wheeee!!!
hahahahahahahahahahaha.

wednesday is also media law exam day. *whines* i havent had exams in sucha long time its such a pain to go thru just ONE. and it doesnt help that its an open book one cos in the history of ngee ann exams, open books are the most diff of the lot. DAMN.

oohyes!! CONGRATS TO GARY FOR GETTING HIMSELF A DATE TO GO FINE DINING TONITE!! *grins* he was the person who won a date with jaslyn on class95. haha! sho farnie. the sentimental side of gary. *shocked look* oh and it was so nice of him to dedicate song to me! *beams* anyway i was listening to class95 that day n i realised that they play really gd oldies n sentimental love songs. there is one called Superwoman. someone pls tell me the singers name cos i totally forgot.

oohs this is a loooooooooooong blog entry. but its a happy one. *smiles*

oohyays! chinablack was AWESOME!!!!!! *beeeg smiles*

"tempted to touch.. tempted to touch..."

going again nxt wed. anyone for chinablacking next wed?! give me a beep kays?

somehow its amazing how extremely small singapore is okays. like i know your friends and you know my friends shit? yeahhh, FRIENDSTER. then link-link thing.

ohyes!! i am SOOOOOOO finished with editing for specs n tv studio. now is time for me to slack, enjoy life and be loved (i hope). haha.

for all u know pple, i may turn into a chinablack regular knows. haha!! :D

"tempted to touch... tempted to touch..."

hooyes! hooyes!! hooyesss!!!

i have discovered a very nice eat thing near far east. okss. you know outside fareast the OCK? next to it is quaint lil stall tat sells this obscene thingy called CHURROS. okss. it looks obscene. duno wat talking i? go order one and c how the girl prepares it and u know wat i mean. anyway, they coat the thingy in cinnamon sugar and i love my churros with caramel filling. *yumm* and its cheapo! its$1.80!! go check it out peeps!!! yummmmmy!!

and then....

"tempted to touch... tempted to touch..."

OKSS. EVERYONE KEEP YOUR 30th MARCH FREE!!! ITS CAROL'S BDAY CELEB AT CHINABLACK OKSS!! (with or without her) hahaha.

"tempted to touch... tempted to touch..."

ohgosh. imbored.

chinablacking tonites. yay. i have grown smart. i dun wanna go msging ppl to ask them to club. i just GO when n where i feel like going. double yays.

daddy bought my bro creative zen!!! i want i want i want. ok im sure he will buy for me i guess. but it might take a little persuasion. apparently he thinks ipod mini isnt as good as creative. DOHH. wells as long as i dont have to pay for it myself, anything is fine. *smile*

im almost done with school. triple yays! thats something i shld celebrate abt. but im sure gonna miss it too. hopefully my sch life doesnt end so soon. i wanna go on with uni so start another phase of life.

a song that me n val can relate to. she wants to live like that. i wanna live like that too.

CINDERELLA - Tata Young
When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory
I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White
Waiting for a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me
I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free

i just need ME.
thats all i need.

sudden bout of depression on saturday.

well apparently zouk was super happening and super fun lah. and i missed it. DUN ASK PLSS.

depressed since the very second i opened my eyes in the morning. went for efp multicams shoot at west coast. after a while of trying very hard to laugh i realised i couldnt. walked off on my own and realised my life has been so meaningless. recently im doing the same stuff over n over again and it feels like crap. i totally ditched the idea of zouk that nite due to the tiredness of calling up pple to confirm if they're going and NO ONE wants to give me a confirmation. went to thompson to eat prata with sam n esther, went to her house to slack abit, and then head home. THATS when everything decided to sink in. sat in the bus, and felt this super horrible sudden urge to cry. eyes started to tear but i held them back cos i was sitting in the bus facing a whole row of pple. tahan until my stop, got off, and i jus broke down. YES, BROKE DOWN. guess all those supressed upsetness kinda overflowed. called up darren and luckily he came down to accompany me. (brought a tissue box with him) haha. so we sat at this playground near my block till 1am plus. cried like mad, said alot of rubbish, felt like crap, and ya, basically it was a horrible nite. sounds stupid rite? yes. bah.

me n darren came to this topic:
i am always smiling n laughing. but am i like that cos i am really happy? or am i like that cos that's what Nikky is supposed to do.

answer: i duno.

maybe i've been putting on that front for too long that it has become part of me. *shrugs*

im kinda stuck in this phase of life for too long. i need new excitement in my life. i need a refreshing change. sick and tired of doing the same thing everyday. guess university and getting a job would bring in all that.

conclusion: i need to get a job and get into uni.
or i go overseas.

ohmien. i one thing i hate abt changing my blogskin. i hate html. u never know why they never work. my HALOCAN isnt appearing!! its like i put the correct stuff in the correct place but the link just isnt APPEARING!!!! HELOOO!!!!!!!

grrrr.... i hate html i hate html i hate html!!!!

i hate being paranoid. i hate being paranoid. i hate being paranoid.

*pulls hair* shit i need to destress asap.

MEL INVADES

you are in some other region of spore now , doing i dunno what.
lalala who cares la.
hah anyway , i did this template :D
wasted my ohsoo precious time please !
tho it still needs editing..
OHWELLS.
im freakin hungry now.


ohkay.
yes yes i know you love love love me
thats all.
BYE WORLD. (:

*sighs* life is getting stressful. i just ended a session of hair-pulling media law assessed tutorial. my gosh. sooooo scared that im gonna fail media law n come back to np for one sem of media law. it better not happen ok.

im totally running outta stuff to blog abt ok.

ohoh. yesterday i bought a new pair of pumps from Diana's shop!! at bugis. SOLE ATTRACTION. *smiles* very nice. now i have to expand it so it would be easy on my feet.

SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS THE MOVIE! i wanna watch that!!!!

i crave movies.
i crave music.
i crave clubbing.
i crave prata.
i crave cairns.

im so darn sick of sch. i dun wanna come to sch anymore. *sulk*

im like rotting in sch at this very moment. waiting for a briefing at 4pm. *yawns* im damn sleepy lah.

i need a new blogskin.

MEL!!! nik needs a new blogskin!!! *smiles*

i wanna go on a holiday to Cairns!!! omigod. i just CANNOT stay stuck in singapore anymore. its so pathetic!!!! i mean, check out Cairns pple!!!!

The coolest stayspot i can find in Cairns.
www.gilligans.com.au

A must-do in Cairns. (thinking abt it takes my breath away)
www.skydivecairns.com

not to mention.......

- wild river rafting
- soaking up in lake placid (minus the crocs)
- sitting by the poolside n soaking up the sunset
- chill at the resident nitespot at gilligans
- theme parks galore (i hope)
- etc etc etc.

ohmigod ohmigod ohmigod!!!!! *squeals*

*sighs* the adrenaline rush is amazing.

i wanna fly like a bird too. like how rosalind pho n may yee flew in Wish You Were Here. yes, i wish i was there. my parents kinda want me to study in australlia. should i? i know i dun want to. i dun want to dump all my friends here n fly off to aussie. but, after watching all those amazing stuff on tv i somehow am starting to contemplate. maybe i MIGHT need a change of environment? meet some new people?

hmmms. wat do u think pple? do you think i should?
i need some answers.

*contemplates*

One last kiss, One last touch

One last tender moment between us.

One last dance, To our first song

While pretending there's nothing wrong.

Let's stay here for a while and

Cherish every moment we're in denial.

We both know

It's better if we just let it go.

maybe we've really taken things a little too fast. so yep, we decided to take a step back.

maybe its better too. i must really learn to not jump into things too fast.

grrr.... NIKKY WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!!!!!!

*sighs*

wishing him all the best with his medical review n air grading. *smile*


i have a huuuuuuuge craving for prata rite now. PRATA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmmfs. ok im feeling abit insane due to a throbbing head. urgh.

lazy to go on blogging already.

*heads for the panadols*

*big smiles*

went to watch hitch with my sweetest yesterday. sho farnie!!!!! hahas. will smith is a great actor lah.

after the movie we went to meet his dad and funky mum who were downstairs. and almost immediately my sweetest got himself a new hp!! hahas. siemens "how can u measure STYLE". hees. its nice!! u know why?! cos they have WORMS in their games!!! gosh!!! hahas. the cutest lil thingys ive seen!!!! *smile smile*

then his dad drove me home. (thanks uncle!!!) not like he can c it but ya.. haha!

supposed to go hav devilish meatballs for breakfast today with sweets but i gotta be at home practising my songs for later. damn!! *sighs* nvm gonna c him later!!!! after class!! wheee!!!

*lol*

yesterday was officially piss-off day for me marine n samantha. haha! everyone n anyone was pissing us off!!!! for me? it was that horrible disgusting 1-2-3andahalf mass comm lecturer. watever her name was. stupid biatch!! i was in the proplan lab trying to finish my media law assignment when she was abt to start class. thing is, i din even c her coming in?! anyways, all i wanted to do was PRINT!!! cos i gave up trying to finish it. and she took my paper away from me?! like wtf?! ure not even my lecturer u biatch!!! den luckily the printer itself had paper inside so when sam clicked print i got my work printed out. dennn!!! tat horrible biatch starting counting "1...2...3....3andahalf..." wtf?! i know u can count u peabrain!!! so i grabbed my stuff, gave her a killer stare, n walked out. yes, and her whole mass com class was staring at me. WATEVER!!!! if i EVER c that disgusting being again i will so wanna strangle her!!!!!!!

there were OTHER biatches of cos that wouldnt be appropriate to complain abt in here.

okok. nuff of bitching. hahas.

gotta get back to my practice.

toodles pple....

*smilesmilesmilesmile* yes i'm all smiles. *smile*

theres something terribly wrong with me. im starting to think i have a huge problem. 2 guys have already told me the same thing. i like u but i cant picture myself being with u. isit me? am i like too chummy n buddy buddy that its so diff to picture me as a girlfriend? i duno. i reeeeealiee duno. ohwells. end of another so-called "relationship".

im destined to be single huh.


on a lighter note. ZOUK TONITES!!!! hahas. zoukie phuture zoukie phuture zoukie phuture. i miss that place. i havent been going there for quite some time already. i hope i dont suffocate n die there tonite. I SCARE AH!!!! hahas. VERY SCARE I DIE LEHS! (ah ta i know u r laughing again if u r reading this) hahahaha. ah ta promised to cordon off a special starlet area for me!! yays!! so maybe i wouldnt die tonite!! hee hee.

going to watch finding neverland later. yay yay!!

ohyesh ppl. if u are damn free pls take a click on the webbie below. im quite sure u all will laugh your pants off. trust me on this. haha!!

www.illwillpress.com

uber hilarious!!!!!


loolalalala. *big smiles*