update time!!

hmm lets see. firstly, I GOT A JOB!!! whee hee hee!!! gonna be working at the ground floor of CK Tangs surrounded by counters of perfumes n makeup. of cos, i myself IS working at a makeup & skincare counter. so everyones gonna c me white like ghost. meaning? i will be piling makeup on myself. criteria lah. gotta hav heavy makeup. my counter is IPSA. its a japanese makeup and skincare brand. so people!! free do drop by and add to my commission ok? hee!

secondly, i have officially moved in with my darling babe at ghim moh. though its temp im still feeling uber happy! haha. its fun y'know!! haha. indescribable fun!! the way tat horrible girl peeps at the guy opp who is peeing at us. madness. PURE madness.

well, sad to say. cos of my new job i may have to give up my taiwan trip. *SUPEREST BIG SIGH* i cant blieve it. my dreamlike holiday is *poof* gone. its not like i have a choice. i cant tell them im starting work late etc for the very reason - i gotta get my damn PR. yesh. gotta study at SIM. my sacrifice better pay off in the future. maybe due to a good degree i get posted to TAIWAN TO WORK!! WHEE HEE HEE!! (yeah rite)

realised that its really time for me to grow up. im cant always be a little girl and have fun n hope that my dad n mum is gonna support me for the rest of my life. therefore, this may mean that i have to leave behind some of my "hobbies" (or watever u call it) no more going gaga n running after someone who is still obviously a continent away from me. (no i am not talking abt bfs here) guess its something i have to let go n leave the screaming n chasing to the younger generation. i admit, I AM GETTING OLD. no doubt i still like them. i still fantasize (dun tink crooked pls) and i still wish i could marry jay chou. (wahahaha) but i guess it will have to fade away somehow, sometime. so yeah. cheers to the new nikky. bah!

btw pple, there are some things i will never let go. LIKE CLUBBING FOR INSTANCE! haha. thats a must-indulge for even adults. which brings me to my next topic:

clubbing anyone?

hahaa. yeash. after a long 1 month plus of non clubbing i am back! i am itchy! i am rawring to go! dancefloors!! here i coooooome!!!! hahahahaha. i havent been shaking my booty for quite some time. this aint the way to do it dawg!!! (randy jackson overload) kukuness.

so whoevers up for some chionging this coming wed, GIMME A BEEP OK!!

toodles!

i tell you, PLANET FITNESS IS FUCKED UP!!!!

lets see, they call me up ask me down to suntec for interview. ok i go. firstly, i applied for membership sales. so the sales manager interviewed me. after a detailed interview, he passed me to his superior who interviewed me further. den ask me wait, the next thing i know, i was passed to CUSTOMER SERVICE manager for interview. ok so i go thru it. no big deal. she seemed quite positive abt hiring me. so i was asked to head down to FAR EAST SQUARE branch to find HR manager. okie. next day i head down to find HR manager. got asked the same questions as the day before. yada yada yada. after that, i was told to wait for a call by the end of the week. (which was LAST WEEK) everything seemed positive n going my way lah.

next day, some woman frm PLANET FITNESS called n ask me down to CALTEX HOUSE! ok!! this is like the 3rd interview. they hav 4 branches n i already ran 3!! fineee. nvm go down againnnn. got interviewed by 2 ppl. the lady seemed nice. the guy? GAY!! FARKING GAY WHO HAS SOMETHING AGAINST ME LAH!!!! anyway, done with that. ask me wait for call by tuesday since monday is a public holiday. FINEEEE.

WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT. now already wednesday!!! HELO!!!!!! make me run 3 branches very farnie isit!!! i think if pple like samantha work in DBS run all the branches she die already lah!! how the hell u people work man!!! TSKS!!! horrible management!!!!

anyway, im plagued with unsuccesful interviews lah. or i send my resume n i dont freaking get a reply. WTH. this farking sux oks.
planet fitness is disgusting!!

I NEED A JOB DESPERATELY LAH!!!!

ive got GREAT news.

I CHICKENED OUT.

i cant believe myself. ytd garang garang say wanna end everything blah blah blah. n today i chickened out.

i am a L O S E R oks.

everyone! ure at a loser's blog!!! sheesh!!! im supposedly the one who's gonna be "rawr" n tekan him. and den, after he sayang me a little only, I MELT! wat can i say. i suck.

i seriously cant believe myself.

now im "back to square and back at one". quoted frm an irritant.

ARGH!!!!!!!!

to make myself feel better i actually bought myself a girl's boxers frm topshop. keke.

S i G h .

LOSERME signing off. (goes back to clobbering myself against the wall)

im so sick and tired of everything.

i guess its really time to give up on this so called relationship. no point for me trying so hard to salvage this while he doesnt seem to give a damn.

why do i have to hold on so tight when on the other end of the rope he is just loosening one minute and pulling the next. i have completely lost balance and i see no point in trying to keep the rope straight. so just let me end my own misery and throw myself into another misery altogether.

i've never known how it feels to break up with someone i still love. but now i do. i dont know wat his reaction will be. i dont know wat he will say. i dont even know if he still harbours any feelings for me. and i want to know. even if it means that we still gotta part. i want to know.

typing this entry is basically bringing tears to my eyes. it seriously hurts like crazy. okok, STUPID ME AGAIN. yes yes, jumping into another relationship that will just go down the drain.

wat can i say. i never learn. n i guess i never will.

the irony of it: and i thought we could last at least 6months.
guess i was over ambitious huh.

goodbye, my love.

ooh yes! im almost 85% to getting a job! haha.

went for interview at Planet Fitness today. i went in interviewing for a Membership Sales person. i came out interviewing for Customer Service. haha. its all good actually. i feel that i'd rather do customer service. gonna head down to their HR department tmr and more or less see when im gonna start work. YAY!! NO MORE SLACKING AT HOME!!! cant wait to start work ok. i hate rotting at home with nothing to do.


i dun know how long more i can pretend that nothing's happened n we r happy together. he is my BOYFRIEND. n yet i dun feel i have one. its getting to the point where i dun wanna go n think abt it cos i feel that thinking isnt gonna make things better. but when i feel like i want to give up and turn away from this "relationship" he comes back n makes me feel he cares again. i hate this on-off relationship we r having. im just gonna see how far my patience can bring me. when my patience wears thin or i meet someone else, its time to say good bye once n for all.

OR...

things changes for the better and we go back to the first few weeks.



let's see which comes first ok.

bored bored bored.

ever since i got back from thailand my life is back to boredom.

godamnit i need a job ok!!!! argh.

gonna move to sg very soon. im hoping like hell after the move my life would change.

hell i need to club!!!
girls dig out your clubbing gear!!!!!

ohhyes! back from thailand! *jumps arnd*

i shopped till i nearly died. haha. so amazingly cheap the stuff there!! omg!! this is the first time i realie buy n buy like without thinking twice!!! let's sum up my buyings!!

- 6 pieces of tops (each costing less den 10SGD)
- a new pair of super high cut suede converse (30plusSGD)
- 6 pairs of earrings (all for 3SGD)
- menicure & pedicure (12SGD)
- ankle band (less den 1SGD)

these are for myself. not including the stuff i bought for others. whee!!

special experiences:

1. we were all forced to eat fried grasshoppers. actually they didnt taste as bad as i tot they would. cos they had seasoning sprinkled all over so it jus tasted like keropok.

2. ate SOTONG EGGS. ohgawd this was the killer. i nearly puked. i didnt tink they would taste bad but ohmygawd!! so fishy smell. it was cooked. but it still tasted BAAAAAAAAD. eeks.

3. GAY SHOW!! omg it was like live gay porn!!! super naked guys with good bods dancing arnd. but it was one helluva experience. firstly, toilets are unisex?! so i like went in and saw guys doing their thing?! tried like hell not to stare lah. it was scary shit lah. n not to mention a whole lotta guys in white undies sitting arnd. most of them r straight y'know. they jus work at gay bars cos basically they earn big bucks there. so basically they saw me n jingjing they were more den happy for us to bring em home. haha. but obviously we didnt.

highlite of gayshow:
FUCK SHOW! yes. i saw 2 guys having sex. EEW. gross lah. painful to watch also. n the best part. THEY GOT OFF THE STAGE CONNECTED N CAME TOWARDS MY ROW N SPRAWLED ON TOP OF ME. i freaked out like mad ok. i kept inching away n turning away. den suddenly, i felt wetness on my arm. THE FREAKING GUY LICKED MY ARM!?!? i nearly cried. luckily laoshi kinda pushed em away. freakout!!!

when i exited the gay bar i kinda got molested lah. touchy touchy on the arms n pinches on the cheeks. one of them held my hand den i quickly pulled back sia. n for a min i thought it was jingjing who held my hand. SHEESH. i was mistaken for korean n japanese so many times. those idiots kept talking to me as if i was jap. stand in front of me. "hello!! konichiwa!! kawaii kawaii!!" i was like "wat the f***..."

got back to the hotel. first thing i did was head for shower n SCRUB AWAY!!!! esp the arm i got licked. EEEEEEEEEW. so now im squeaky clean n safely back home.

i bet everyone missed me!! :)

awright. back from IMM.

G O N E R is the word.

i dun understand wat went wrong. i was on pitch i sounded okay. everytime was OK. so wat the hell went wrong?! until now i dun understand why i got axed. ohwells. end of my "superstar" dream. back to being me.

dun worry i wont give up so soon :) small small setback.
nikky will overcome it very very fast. *cheers*

wanna say a huuuuuuge thank u to all who came down to support me today.

1. maisie
2. mindi
3. val
4. angie
5. siew
6. and of cos my family

*muacks* to all of u. love u guys!!

heading to bangkok tmr for shopping, food and gay shows. yays!!!

bangkok prepare for the arrival of NIKKY!!!!!

Your Birthdate: April 21

Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

omg!! its so BULLSEYE TRUE!!!! so true so true.
perfectly describes my personality. WOW.

i bought a new skirt!! AGAIN. haha. yesyes. im addicted to skirts ok!!

its denim n batik sewn together. got it from hula n co at far east. love it!! hee. i have thoughts of wearing it on sunday but my mum insists its not cute enough to impress. duhh. she wans to dress me up cutesy wutesy. grrrr. ok if it means to look cute n hav more new clothes i dun mind. haha. so be it.

i hate the gayish guy at the churros stall!!! problematic idiot.

gayish guy: any topping?

before me n sam could answer. he dumped sam's churros in the topping. theres 3 to choose from. he didnt even ask which one she wanted. same went for mine. in it went to rainbow rice topping. ass!!!! and to add to my fury. he didnt put the caramel in my churros properly. hence it all leaked out frm the bottom. WASTE OF CARAMEL OKS!!

idiot. tsks.

a thought popped into my mind.

i invite alot of frens to support me at imm on sunday. wat if i get kicked out?! SIBEI MALU SIA!!! so i hope n pray like mad i get in okss. i dun wanna disappoint everyone who goes down to c me. *flush honey down my throat* if need be i shall go pray at the temple, get a talisman, burn it n drink the ashes. hee.

my blog is rather stagnent for some time. well, nothing much has been happening so of cos there isnt much to blog. sighs. boring life eh.

will be flying off to thailand for a few days after my superstar auditions. 9th to 11th may. dun miss me too much. hee hee. hope when i get back frm thailand my life would be back to its colourful state. i hate my blacknwhite life.

speaking of colours. jus got a trim today n dyed my whole head purple. of cos not vibrant purple. its kinda discreet. the kind tats only obvious under the sun.

thailand. lets see, shopping shopping n more shopping!! of cos there's the food, the massage (without extra service) and the nitelife n shows. haha. ie GAY SHOWS!! haha. it would be an eye opener man. sitting there n watching guys have sex with each other. cant wait!! haha. ok im not perverted ok. its jus that u dont c these kinda shit everyday in singapore. its a once in a lifetime experience lah. hahaha. ok i mountain turtle. watever.

i hate emotional rollercoasters. they drive me nuts.