hey everyone!! its 6.10 in the morning n im all high at the airport now...tee hee!! so shiok...first time me going take plane without my parents leh!! haha..i knw lah...v suaku....dun care!! me feel super grown up now...hahahahaha....v high lehhh....den me wearing shades n all..machiem some big star...haha...act act onli lah....maisie n val also bz blogging...wahah....gonna go board soon though....gonna b in kl in a whiles...hmmm....feels kinda weird...but....i love it!!! im high so the stuff im gonna blog will most prob not make any sense but who cares....all i want is for monday afternoon to come asap...tats all i wan...haha!!

ok im being crappy...wadever...for a girl who slept barely 1 hr...im v awake k!!! hmmm...so high!!! i cant stop typing...im just typing wadever comes into my mind...hee hee!!

lalalala.....oh man oh man oh man...my next trip.. TAIWAN!!! hehehe... show show show....lalalalala!!! im going insane~!!!

someone pinch me n tell me im not dreaming...

*ouch*

ok im not...*grins*

gtg!! tata my darlings!!!! its off to kl for lil Nikky!!!! *muahx*

oh mannn!!! later 5am gotta get ready go airport den go kl...and im still up...at maisie's house...haha...i seriously asking to die sia....but i tink its gonna b reeeeeaaaaalllll fun....!!!!

i jus found out smthing damn stupid abt myself....damn idiotic!!! i cant freaking sing in a recording studio with the damn earphones on!!! haha...scenario:

laoshi asks me to sing when i had my earphones on..me was totally TONE DEAF!! my pitching was waaaaaaaay off n i couldnt hear at all...i kept tinking i was singing the right note...kept trying n trying n trying but i was jus OFF!!!! den laoshi went like "nikky..take off yr earphones.." *me take off* "now sing..." *me sing* "see!! all right on pitch!!!" den i put back the earphones n me go totally off pitch again...in the end i sang with my earphones barely on my ears...jus slightly to let me hear abits of the music...duhhhh.....

conclusion: i cant freaking sing with earphones on....

i suck! haha.....seriously...i nid to see psychiatrist....(is that how u spell it?) wahahah!!!

anyways me go monster practise my song.....for next sat's exam..and i mean MONSTER PRACTISE...sing it everyday n everymin...until i puke foam....den i will hate the song after tat...haha....btw ppl..the song is FIR's LYDIA... *lol*

wish me luck!! n i'm off to KL!!! *grins*

p/s darling dun miss me.... *winkz*

lala...went to watch cellular today...quite cool..chris evans so freaking droolsome!!! haha...den met alex at heerens...felt nice to c him again after so long...hahaha..he's jus as cute as ever!!! my gosh..haha....almost died...den went high awhile....den got back to normal lah..tee hee!!!

bought this nail sticker to play with...bloody cheakskate today so bought the $1.90 one...wah freaking waste my money...came home the thingy keep tearing....not i rough lor!! its realie lousy!!!!! nxt time richer go buy the nicer one...

hmmm..gonna b leaving for kl tmr...officially....haha..got nagged like hell by daddy but still..he cares man...me his little princess..."careful arh..cars in kl not like singapore so good one...got ppl snatch bag...better watch out..." haha...awwwww......

toodles ppl!! i'll b back with loads to tell on monday!!!!! yay!!!!

i bought show's album today!! wheeee!! haha...super nice!!!! enjoying every sec of it...*melts* i just realised how much i miss him.....Show i miss u!!! miss u lots!!! hahahaa...k i'm just being hua chi.....dun like dun read!! blerh...this is my blog so i can say WATEVER i wan...haha.....

shit lah....am i insane? hmmmm..tink i am wor...hmm....

went ktv today..haha..super shiok...havent so shiok in a v long time...

saw jielun's new mtvs..eh his wo de di pan v nice sia....haha...v good ktv song!!!

me love ktv!! wheee....!!

awright......im officially super super broke......cant believe it..i wasnt supposed to spend any money today...at least not on clothes lah...but couldnt stand it lah...saw this pants at far east super chio lidat....den buey tahan den buy lor....den after tat saw this tee shirt...thanks to samantha lah!!! den i also gian den buy...$33 for pants..$19 for tee.....*sighs* SUPER BROKE!!!! i wan money to drop from the sky lah!!!!! anione wanna donate to the Nikky Charity? hehex...now my wallet got one big hole liaox...............

today happily wear my new nike shoes...walked to Left Foot...den the guy in the shop like stare stare onli.. haha.. yea i have pretty shoes!!! wheee!! haha....

im proud of my shoes.... Yay!

awright ppl!!! NIKKY'S BACK IN THE HOUSE!! wahhaha....i miss my computer shoooooooo much!!!!! i miss my house i miss my bed n i miss my darling samantha baby..haha!! k lah...i miss everything in jb lah......shoot was like crap.....esp the canal scene....dun wanna relive the torture so not gonna blog abt it...hehee!!
oh ya i havent blogged abt me buying my darling shoes!!!! i bought it i bought it i bought it!!! hee... went queensway to c....at first the first shop i went to din hav any sizes...i almost wanted to cry...somemore the stupid idiot at the shop said "dun bother finding at other shops here...they dun hav one.." den i saw it at tis other shop abit further down lor...somemore hav ALL the sizes...n its cheaper!! bloody fuck!! haha...tat guy should jus go die...haha....
nyeh nyeh nyeh... i love staying in sg cos i get to stay out darn late!!! n not worry abt not being able to go home.....i wanna live in sg!!! *lol*

amazing.... i got a testimonial from him.............. *heh*

supposed to go sg with sam n go shop!! dennn....woke up with that familiar acute pain in my gastric area.... i.e. i ended up being a potato at home....so idiotic....blerh......

tmr gotta go settle costume stuff with amy cheng n melody chen...den i wanna go buy my shoe!!! aiyohhhh......i've been pining for my shoe for too long..i so wanna wanna wanna get it!!!!! *screams* haha....

2nd block of shoot coming ler....the stress is getting to me liaox....wah after the shoot im a free bird!!! i wanna go studio wu!!!! Street Jazz!!!! Clubbing!!! hahaa...i wanna dance dance dance dance...........

im going insane....

finally feeling better..after so many days of pain pain n more pain...spent the day at my sammie baby's house..haha..i tink her mum had a fright when she came back from work...tot she had another daughter or smthing..cos me n sam huddled together in bed watching tv...haha....

got lotsa stuff to do already....actually tot of doing everything from fri nite onwards..but now my time is lessened....damn it....

*sighs* its so darn sad to be so horribly sick and no special someone to care n call n make sure u r alright.....guess my special someone would most prob b tinking of smone else.... tat sux......

cant believe it!! ive been in bed from thurs nite until today...feeling so friggin sick...wah lan...wat the hell did i eat!!! food poisioning...*argh* been feeling weak since thurs nite...cant walk..cant eat...cant do ANYTHING!! even getting off my bed feels like i've got tons of weight tied to my legs...and it didnt help that someone felt like coming jb...and end up? IM SICK!!! urgh.....until now im still feeling like crap....i cant even bloody sit straight....come to think of it...hmmm..ever since thurs nite i onli ate a few mouthfuls of porridge and a few mouthfuls of plain instant noodles...tats damn aneroxic sia....

urgh...

urgh...

urgh...

someone put me outta this misery damn it!!!

MY HAPPY ENDING - Avril Lavigne

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

hmmm...today was quite a boring day niax.....haha.....the onli "happening" thing is getting stuck in a jam and sleeping all the way.....so wat is there to say? haha....nothing...blerh......im bored...seriously....urgh....damn sianx....i wanna go studio wu!!!!! dancing is the funnest way to lose weight...at least tats wat I THINK...haha....i need to club....i miss phuture........ phuture wo ai ni worh..... *lol*

Happy 21st Birthday to YOU.. duno if u will ever get to c this...but get well soon...and...i really miss u.....

me pierced my ears today!! hehee...ok..make it EAR...singular..haha...one on the left ear....oh den me sam n carol watched 2046...it was supposed to b out tmr leh...but duno y its out today liaox....but it kinda sucked though..haha...i kinda hate wong kar wai pattern films...no doubt the shots r beautiful....exposure n compostition swee arh...but the storyline n the delivery was a big bleahs...not v good....too slow paced lah...for my taste...me n sam nearly fell aslp.....haha...den we went BODYSHOP!!! hehee...!!! finally found the scent i've been looking for...*sniffs* oh mannn...its addictive..hahah....i wanna buy everything in that scent...hmmm....less than an hour to his birthday liaox...wonder where he is....wonder whats he doing....shopped arnd for his pressie today....found lots of stuff for him..but $$ was a huge factor though..haha....when im broke its v diff to get him something that he SURE LIKE...hee.....but im gonna go c c at bodyglove tmr...hope i can get him smthing from there.....realised today...i miss him...alot alot....i duno y....but i jus missed him...like i step into PS...den memories start flashing back...step into the theatre....more memories....the character of Zhang Ziyi in 2046 seems alot like me...in the movie she told Tony Leung..."why cant we go back to what we used to be?" i feel that way too..but i asked this question a million gazillion times...i never get an answer....never....*sighs* oh well...emo nite ehh...i duno....but i jus super super super miss him....... *wo hen xiang ni....zhen de hen xiang ni....* all my memories are traces of tears...

hiya ppl...im back!! haha....home sweet home.....*melts* super miss my bed cann...haha....i v lazy to update lah..but basically..my specs shoot went rather well....everything somehow turned out quite good...and keagan was super fun...so was corriene..haha....and VINCENT NG!!! *squeals* oh mannn...cant believe it...he is supeeerrrrr cute!!! he like making cute faces n winking at me until i blush like hell...the whole crew and cast were making fun of me till i blush like hell.....den i pass him drink...i was like "qing hai...zhe ge gei ni...." den he smile and take the drink from me and said "xie xie...ni zui guai ler..." wah i super blush again!!! den everyone started telling him im his little fan...den he was like "zhen de mah? bu yao rang wo kai xin leh..." wah super faints!!! den after tat he took a pic with meeeee!! *super melts* i tell u arh...he made me blush for the whole 20 mins he was dere k.....den after tat corriene n keagan kept making fun of me...blerh...haha..but it was so super fantasy-dreamworld-like!!!! aiyohhhh...im still on cloud 9 everytime i tink abt it...*blushes blushes* hehee..... hmmm im super tired now....my eyelids getting v heavy....tink ar....its the lack of slp for the past 5 days and enormous amt of energy spent every day.....*phews* time to stock up on slp liaox!! haha...hmmm...14th coming near....his bday coming near.........if only i could spend it with him............... DREAM ON NIKKY....DREAM ON....

tmr's the start of my nightmare...haix....just heard from tiffany this afternoon we have a whole day of shoot on saturday...which means...i cant go for my ADP class!!! super siansated lor!!! wahlau!!!! those classes mean the world to me leh!!! damn...... anyway...i wont b able to go on msn n blog for the next 5 days?! cos i will b at my cousin's place lor...haha...but can stay out late!! muarhahaha...but den again....we will b shooting till the wee hours of the morning..how to go out sia....haha....but can go supper lor.....hmmm......cant wait for the 5 days to fly past...den i can go n havoc abit liaox......where is marc jonet when u nid him!!! *lol* i was running all over sch asking everyone i know.."where is marc? have u seen marc?" hahaa....i needed to speak to him urgently about a request for extension for online bluenose...i have no time to do due to the fact tat me have specialist shoot for the 5 days before deadline?! haix...damn irritating.....anyways....maybe i will go find him on fri......i cant believe i agreed to shoot on a sch week..so idiotic............. hmm...oh ya i gotta say an official goodbye to Darius "zhu" Goh... haha....not exactly GOODBYE lah..but i wont b seeing tat blob in sch anymore..today was officially his last day of sch in np ehh....haha...wonder how he will look botak.....time to go NS n get yr 8 pacs lah dey!! haha...go go go...but on a more emo note.....im gonna mish tat bugger...haha...heard that!! i will miss ya!!! oh wells.....gotta pack up soon.......goodbye msn n bloggie for 5 days...!!! *muahs*

hoho!! i finished my Flowers & Gardens!! wat a huge achievement....now i gotta start working on my Bluenose online...altho i have totally no idea how....tmr is the last day i can ever work on my online cos from thurs to the deadline i have specialist shoot..therefore tat kinda equals to impossible? but i wanna do my online!! hmmm i gonna go to marc jonet tmr n see if i can get an extension considering tat im shooting specialist freaking earli.... freaking hell!!! felt abit rich today den went to buy 2 cds at a go..haha...anyway i gonna buy it sooner or later..so when im in the mood jus go buy lor...bought Andrew Chow's Flava and Tension's Story..heex!! *argh!!* got this stupid irritating housefly keeps flying around me lah!! no im not smelly k!!! i just bathed..its jus being super irritating......oh n u noe wats more irritating den this housefly? my effing brother!! he idiotically goes to my room..takes my cd...and either listens to it without my permission or lends it to god knows which other idiot.....now my cds r freakingly disappearing...feel like strangling the hell outta him sia....anyway i wont b blogging frm thurs to next mon....gonna b staying over at aunt's place...i dun wan to...but i HAVE TO... damn.... *pouts*

it was breakdown day for me. *sighs* wat can i say...i super stressed out until i don't even feel like talking about it...cos jus talking abt it can make it even more stressful....sat in front of the sony online editing machine n cried...jus cried my eyes out...hoping it could make me feel better...but it didnt. i am stressed like crap....if i could...i would just dump everything n run away to some island for a couple of months...den come back n pick up from there....but i cant......im hoping this next week will fly past and den i can hibernate and rest....like sleep for 24 hours straight....no one can imagine the kinda freaking stress im going thru now....and its not helping when my mum keeps interogatting me..its super irritating...i hate being asked idiotic questions....i hate being accused for things i didn't do....i hate it when she lies thru her teeth and thinks im some 3 year old kid who's gonna believe her....seriously.....cant my parents jus learn for a fact im a freaking 19 going on 20 year old...im not kid anymore..i can freaking take care of myself.....and i freaking hate for a fact tat they r going thru my "stuff" and still act like they aren't!! sheeesh...im in a state of near explosion......after a long stressful and tiring day at sch....i dun wanna come home to be nagged at......CAN'T I FREAKING HAVE SOME PEACE IN MY OWN FREAKING HOME!!!

oh mannn!! i totally humiliated myself at rouge!!!! i must have been a total idiot...so sorry to all of u...had to make ur nite so miserable in the end cos u all had to take care of me....*hides* cant believe i did all tat shit u all told me...*sighs* wat can i say......my alcohol tolerance is totally crap..... anyway...the nite started off kinda fun....went to rouge.....sat down at our wonderfully awesome seating area...den got a complimentary champange on the house..which kinda tasted farnie..haha....so me n sam kinda downed everything one shot....den we started dancing..poor me had to literally DRAG ppl down to the dance floor..sheesh...wats it with u ppl and starting the dancing going...if we're not gonna do it...NO ONE WILL...so wat the heck rite?! tats wat i tink larh hur.. haha..den i started to drink alreadi....danced twice to three times on the platform....den started to dance with him lah....haix...it feels so darn good to b dancing with him..seriously....*sighs* anyway it was good while it lasted....den yan yi n yan ren were kinda high...n duno why they had so many free jugs so they kinda tar the whole bloody jug with me lor....den tat was IT!! i "died"....haix....den i started to say stupid things....do stupid things....god knows wat......"i wanna order lebon" I CANT FREAKING BELIEVE I SAID THAT!! SO FUCKING EMBARRASING!!!! argh!!!!! i cant even rmb crying at all lor...the crazy stuff alcohol does to u....sheeeeeeesh..........oh mannn...i shall try to forget tat this whole incident ever happened k.....but im starting to fall in love with clubbing at rouge...its seriously more relaxed...not as hyped up as phuture but still good....in the sense that when u r tired u at least have a place to sit down n have a good rest.....tats kinda impossible in phuture rite? haha....now we r all digging up idiotic reasons to go clubbing again.....oct 14th....someone's bday is coming...i wanna club...WITH HIM....please? wat should i buy.....for him.........my last idea is kinda stupid now i tink...so im scrapping it...........ideas ppl??? heex......... im crazy abt him........................

me at hangout hotels now...hmm..this place...its kinda funky...except the rooms...they suck...haha..and the things u have to go thru to get here..oh boy..this place is super uluated...ulu lyk shit!!!! first we take 111 to find tat we went one big round n end up in the same place...den we decided to take cab..waited forever till we got one...den we told the uncle "mount emily" den he tot we said "mount alvernia" or smthing lidat...idiotic..den we took a big turnaround to get to hangout @ mt emilys...haix....but u noe watz the cool thing abt tis place? we have free internet access!!! free coffee n tea..the tv place is cool...we have pool!! well...mai hiam buey pai larh..heex....jus got a call from alex....he might be going rouge tonite...sheesh....to tink bac abt wat i did at rouge the last time...haha..damn weird...hmmm..now lebon maybe going hur..whahha....kk gtg up bathe liaox...toodles!!! =) *winkz*