ah wells...as i expected...i was disappointed..AGAIN...after so many times its starting to get really tiring...to the extent that i no longer want to even try...i'll jus leave things the way it is...

wanted to go and sit that damn exciting ride at chun dao he pan..but its a bloody 20 bucks per ride...kaox...so ex...!! so in the end...we scraped the idea....

anyone has any HAPPY stuff to do on feb 14th?! cos as i can predict...i'm gonna rot around town with marine..once again...=| its gonna be oh so depressing...seeing all the lovey dovey stuff tats going on around town....

maybe i shall jus go clubbing and hook up with any one male species...
NAH!!!! I wont resort to that...hehehe...relax relax....

its so bloody depressing!!!! i hate being depressed...it sux... =|

*give me a reason to smile...and i will....*

heehhee..realised i havent been blogging for quite a while...but nothing much happened anyways...but these few days i've been in a veri happy mood i guess...sch's great (at the moment?)...have been getting quite a few sms-es tat got me quite "high"..hehe..n got quite a bit of money...hiak hiak...=p

my comp has been completely screwed up these few days...for no damn reason the whole pc auto shut down on my yesterday...den...dese few days suddenly happy happy the whole computer screen will start shaking..as if it got fits...makes me so dizzy...then the mouse cursor will become this small black box...crazy arh!!!

i need a totally new pc loh!! crapz...my dad will be getting one for me soon..i tink? he said it in the car today when we were on the way to perling for seafood..hehe..den thruout the whole car ride i played jay's yeh hui mei album in the car...den started intro-ing every single song to my dad n mum..haha...with my dad its a waste of time larh..he will nv noe how to appreciate jay's songx..hehe...my mum diff story..she noes how to appreciate..hahahaha...

ah wells..i'm waiting for a certain someone to msg me...duno if he remembers at all...but i praying...hehe...but im not keeping my hopes high i guess...

i have learnt not to....so when the answer is negative..i wont be THAT disappointed...

*wo yao xue hui rang zi ji jian qiang...*

*coughs* me ish sick...it got worse yesterday after all the screaming..haha..at energy's video conference...my god...niunai is sooooooo cute...hehehe....

ok..i shall recap what i did on saturday..

sat afternn after regional cinema..went town with my girls..hehehe...we rushed to HMV n checked out Energy-4ever...wah seh..the cover sooo nice!! hehehe...n for the first time we realised HMV was selling cheaper den all the other music stores like Sembawang and Music Junction and CD-Rama...hehehe...den after a while while of shopping vic sam n carol left..leaving me n marine..AGAIN..so we had nothing to do...jus walk around..went flesh imp find bertram...haha..disturb him a bit..den went to sit at the stone chairs at the side of the pathways down orchard..and SLACK...den we got damn bored so we made a call to bryan..disturb him...call alex..disturb him also..hehe..but he damn blur durin the call so we very fast put down the phone...den called darius...so we decided to go down to punggol to find him n chris before our movie marathon...

when we got dere...i received a msg frm alex.. "sorry ar..jus now i blur blur.." hehehe...damn cute sia...den went chris's house and watched our energy vcd while they were bathing after their RUN..haha...

then we went to....somewhere....to eat..haha....mus see the way the 2 of them eat man...the whole mouth so dirty still dun wanna wipe one loh!! so gross!! =X

den chris tried to psycho the both of us to not go movie marathon n stay over at darius's place n slack..haha...but it wasnt that comvenient..cos no clothes no toothbrush..nothing...another time k? pwomise.. hehe...

movie marathon...first movie...fei ying..quite nice...got some quite horrible shaky shots n horrible editing in the front..but at the back quite nice....second move stuck on you..i slept thruout..haha....third movie..mo huan chu fang...i forced myself awake to watch the show...by tat time i was freezing in the theatre...the show was so-so...jerry yan's acting not tat nice..but his singing improved tho..hehe...n the dubbing for the show was disgusting...haha...

after the show..6 plus in the morning...pia back marine's house n KOed...den woke up in the afternoon to rush down to bishan junction 8...den waited till 8pm for ENERGY!! so nice to see them..even tho they r in taiwan...but...so shiok...hehehe...

den after tat...came home loh! now...in the morning..came online to post discussion on MEL cos its supposed to be a virtual class today..altho onli me marine and carol posted something?! hahaha...duno eh...weird....

ok dis is one loooong post...me gotta go get ready liao..still hav to go sch later...

*qing gei wo quan shi jie de ji mo...everyday..everynight..i am missing you...wo yong yuan hui ji zhu..na pa shen me dou mei you...bie wang le..tai ping yang ling yi bian you ge wo...*
A very touching song by ENERGY- Missing You

today went to HMV and Sembawang Music to find Energy's new album..but Universal Music there delay one day..so tmr den go and buy loh...hehe...one more day...TAHAN!!

tmr sat gotta go back school for regional cinema lecture...haix...its a make-up lesson cos of chinese new yr...but since i going town tmr..not so bad larh...jus sian to wake up earlie...haha....

my mood has changed for the better cos i found out that the MSN thingy..was a screw up on MSN's part..hehe...and i have suceeded in pia-ing a 2000 word essay last nite..but on a not-so-happy note..i was too tired to wake up for scriptwriting tutorial..so i skipped it! hahaha... who cares lah...the swedan woman is hell boring...

today finished my non-linear editing assignment...crap larh..they cant even give us well-shot rushes to edit...everything was so damn badly shot!! and the acting...*shakes head* disgusting....!

me n marine will be going for the YES933 movie marathon on sat nite...frm 12midnite all the way till 6am the next morning...hope i can survive without falling aslp..haha!! den sun going for ENERGY video conference...HAPPY HAPPY!! hehehe...so exciting lidat!! hehehe....

sat n sun nite i'll b sleepin over at marine's place..so duno if i can blog...haha...we shall seeeeeeeeee..... *marine..ting dao le ma!!!* haha...

*** EARLIE HAPPIE CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!! ***

looking at my previous posts and today's post...i realise how easily it is to drop from pure heaven to PURE HELL.

I AM A VERY VERY PISSED PERSON TONITE!

seriously..i've never felt this pissed for a long time...

NO. 1: Nikky is down with a flu..so everything she eats taste like crap...yes..even the stuff she used to call "food from heaven".

NO. 2: Nikky jus spent nearly 3 hours to get home cos of a stupid traffic jam. To add to that..the aircon in the bus was quite cold..resulting in a worse flu.

NO. 3: Nikky has to do a 2000 word essay by friday which is possible by only sleeping at wee hours in the morning due to NO. 4.

NO. 4: Bastard Editing Lecturer wants an edited sequence done by monday. which is highly impossible due to limited timeslots for booking of editing stations. And the best part is..he is teaching us the stuff we have to do for the sequence only during tutorials which is tomorrow. how stupid can one lecturer get. BASTARD is the only word flashing in my mind now. BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD.

NO. 5: Wednesdays was supposed to be a good day for Nikky cos she can slp later and not crawl outta bed early in the morning. but tmr..she has to crawl outta bed jus to make her way down to ITP office to sign log book. (ps. she's SICK!?)

NO. 6: Nikky's first group discussion tutorial is screwed. Dont bother asking why. cos its for the module PQS. explains all.

NO. 7: Apparently she doesnt know if thats what's happening now..but it looks like she got deleted off SOMEONE's MSN list..and it doesnt feel good AT ALL. She can't be a 100% sure that's happening. Cos that person's offline is the email instead of the nickname. It could be a server prob..and she sure hopes its so.

Well...all in all i can say..today is one fucked up day. It has been all well until i took 3 hrs to reach home and started thinking about how i'm gonna spend the rest of my week and realised i wont have a life. all the way till fri i have lessons till 6. i wont even have any time to take a breather. and if the causeway jams up another time leaving me to rot in a bus for 2 hours..i will seriously consider pitching a tent in ngee ann campus and sleep there. either that or i'll jus sleep on the streets until some good samaritan brings me home. fuck.

i hate hate hate hate hate my pqs lecturer...he is one bloody *toot* up person..he can't tell jokes for nuts...he thinks he's damn farnie but he's being idiotic...he keeps picking on my grp for no darn reason...and he DOESNT LISTEN TO US!! grrr....i officially hate pqs...BLERH! *fumes*

i still having sneezing fits..haha...keep feeling sneezes coming but it wont come out..feels so terrible...but for a person like me who's very seldom sick...i kinda like to be sick once in a while..at least it lets pple around me care a wee bit more abt me...teehee!

i still have to bring my ITP booklet to office to let Jack sign..den have to let Mike sign..and pass up the 2000 word report by fri...kaox...i'm sooo dead...*groans*

lazy me...

R&B is kinda cute u noe..hee...at first didnt really like them..now see them..quite cutex..n their songs keep me happy..hahah...i like AI DE BUBBLE's dance steps!!

*show me yur love..be my love...lalalala...*

*stares at msg in hp* i still cant believe i recieved tat msg last nite... haha... it may be nothing much to him..but it made me lose slp for a minute...haha...*grins*

1st msg: "Night." (*pouts..*one-word msg)
after 3 secs...hp beeps...
2nd msg: "take care and drink more water" (*grins* awww...)

today whole day rot n rot...did some reading...listen music...watch some zhou jie lun clips...wah seh..he is so damn talented and cute!!! he got a call from hei ren one nite..n hei ren asked for a song frm him...den frm 9pm tat nite..all the way to 5am the next morning...one song come out liaox...n its quality loh!! pei fu pei fu...jie lun...ni shi yong yuan de ying yue cai zi...i cant wait for him to come sg for the next concert!!!

*xiang hui dao guo qu...shi zhe rang gu shi ji xu..zhi shao bu zai rang ni li wo er qu..fen san shi jian de zhu yi..zhe ci hui bao de gen jing..zhe yang wan liu bu zhi hai lai bu lai de ji..xiang hui dao guo qu...*
Hui Dao Guo Qu by Jay Chou (this song nv fails to make me feel sad...one of my fav songs..)

jus went to do my access card today..finally!! no need to queue up at the msian passport line... *blerh* went out with marine today..den saw B.A.D. at hmv...ben so da cute!! haha...den this bunch of girls behind me keep shouting "ALEX ALEX!!!" so weird sia..haha...(i love BAD's Wo De Cuo!!) den after tat meet chris n darius...at this point of time i wish i was staying at toa payoh again..no need to leave for home so early...haix......

yesterday i was on the way home and listening to the radio...den heard the DJ say:
"if u can stop time at one point of your life...who would u be with..."
i immediately thot of that nite...that perfect nite...hee!!

yesterday nite was aslp when he msged me a goot nite msg...den in my half conscious zhuang tai...i saw it...i nearly rolled off my bed...hahaha...so sweet lorhh!!

*clears throat* okok...stop all this stupid thots nikky!!! but i cant stop smiling?

*i'm thinking of you..wo you ni zhen hao...ni neng rang fan nao bian de miao xiao..wo yu jian yi ge zui dong wo de ren...wo hui ti xing zi ji ba zhe fen ai shou hao...i'm thinking of you...wo you ni zhen hao...zhi yao qian zhe ni de shou jiu zhi dao..wo bu shi yi ge ren zai zhe shi jie ting kao...ying wei wo yong you ni..zai wo xing li...*
You Ni Zhen Hao by Fan Wei Qi & Yang Chen Ling (a veri nice song! a must-sing for me n marine at ktv!!)

GREAT!! my comp disconnected me while i was typing my entry..and then...when i reconnected...my whole post DISAPPEARED!!!! WONDERFUL!!!

here we go again....

today was damn tiring...so tiring that i fell aslp during regional cinema...luckily patrick cheng went outta the LT so i could slp like a baby..hehehe....the show so boring anywayx...and during my nap..i had a dream..i dream of me and him...he brought me out clubbing..and it was jus me n him...and then..he led me into phuture..it was empty...except for me and him...he actually booked the whole of phuture jus for me and him...haix..but everything was a dream...wake up le...everything is nothing....i'm back..in reality...i know i cant keep running away from reality..i cant keep day-dreaming..can't keep saying niunai and jielun are my nan peng yous...but perhaps...its keeping myself happy....artificial but it works...

i always try to be strong...be my bubbly self everyone knows me as...and i've succeeded...really..i have..in school..i'm trully happy...cos i've got my friends...until the times when i'm alone...taking the bus home...in my room...i become another person...the one very little pple have seen....

why do i always repeat my mistakes..why do i keep liking the wrong guys...why do i keep letting myself fall into misery again n again..i dont like it...really...but i can never help myself...wo bu ming bai..zhen de bu ming bai...wo zai zhi zuo zhi shou ma? I want to walk out of this...give me the courage to love again....

it's my fridays that are making me shit depressed...i only have lessons from 10am to 12 pm...anyone else would be hell-happy...can go home early and slp....but not me..i dont like to go home early...and SLEEP my time away...i want to have someone to accompany me...make me look forward to my fridays...make me look forward to the end of class so i can grab my bag and run off to meet someone special...but i dun have...so i shall rot n mug at home...

i detest my fridays..OFFICIALLY...

*i wish i had the answers..i wish i was loved..for once..i wish....*

aiyohx...tuesdays r gonna b the worst day of the week from now on...i can never in my lifetime understand how the hell the sch does the timetable...they seperated me from my dearest mei nus..all our timetables all totally different loh!! *urgh* den tuesdays r so bloody tiring...wake up earlie in the moring jus to attend a one hr lecture at 8..den got 3 hr break..which leaves us nowhere to go...9-12...WHERE THE HELL CAN WE GO!? den got class...1 hr break...class...1 hr break..n the last class...SO WHAT THE HELL CAN I DO FOR THOSE 1 HRS!!! nothing..jus sit in a corner in sch n rot....tats wat i did today...

and boy it didnt help tat i was having gastric pains...felt like shit..eat also pain..dun eat also pain...i hate hving gastric...tmr lessons not so earlie..but still gotta crawl outta bed earlie to renew passport...sheesh...but it sure beats the hell out of queuing up n squeezing with sweaty smelly construction workers who speak a farnie language...i'm guessing THAI...hahaha...i sounded like it....

anywayx...i gotta go slp..before i become a walking zombie...my gastric is still dere...less pain..but dere....

oh oh..and...my mum jus helped me shorten my fringe...hehe...looks OK i guess...

*wo de xin tai luan...*

recently the lyrics of "dui bu qi wo ai ni" has been spinning in my head... =|

today first day of sch..hmmx...lessons a bit boring...but at least got my jie meis with me..hahahahaha...nothing really special happened today larh....so...also got not much to blog abt..hehe...alright lah...tmr will b seeing EVERYONE!! happy happy happy....

*i dun like to see my friends unhappy... =| *

對不起我愛你 (梁靜茹)
作詞：潘協慶 / 李宗盛 / 作曲：潘協慶

沒別的，只想說對不起。對不起，我真的愛你。
不管你會怎麼想，你怎麼說。也不會改變我的決定。
你知道，有時候感情事很難說。很難說，愛人或朋友？
從前到現在我真的感覺要，一想你，我的心就發燒。

想給你聽我的心跳，想你知道我睡的不好。
喝水想著你，搭車想著你。瞌眼閉眼間，出現的全是你。
我猜不到你的表情，我等不到你的回應。
不想難為你，又不想放棄你。
決定告訴你，對不起對不起，我愛你。

沒別的，只想說對不起。怎麼樣，我都會珍惜。
不管你會怎麼講，你怎麼做，也不會影響我的心情。
你知道，有時候男孩更難捉摸。難捉摸，愛人或朋友？
現在到永遠我真會感覺要，一想你，我的心就狂跳。

我的模樣記不記得牢？情人卡有沒有收到？
讀書想著你，聽歌想著你，大地和藍天，出現的全是你。
我纔不管你的表情，我纔不理你回不回應。
不想難為你，又不想放棄你。
決定告訴你，對不起對不起，我愛你。

你聽一聽我的心跳，你看一看我睡的不好。
喝水想著你，搭車想著你。瞌眼閉眼間，出現的全是你。
我猜不到你的表情，我等不到你的回應。
不想難為你，又不想放棄你。
決定告訴你，對不起對不起，我愛你。

*this is everything i want to say to u*

jus went shopping with me mum in the afternoon...bought my monthly contacts...n pens n a book - Energy's MY ENERGY... quite an old book but jus reading for leisure time i guess...hee...den whole afternoon i was lazing n slacking... so peeeegg!!

anyways...i wanna say a HEAAUUGGEEE sorry to darius zhu... sorry i cant make it for your gig today...but i really had to stay in jb accompany my mum...sorriex beeg time..i promise i'll b at yr next gig k??? hehehe... n pls dun do farnie stuff to my towel!! *whines* my poor poor towel...my fav towel!!!

kk... i gotta wait till next week before i get my new levis..cos the store's totally out of sizes.. they oni have waist 24 n 25 left... *looks at my tummy* R U KIDDING ME?! *urgh* fat fat fat...

tmr sch reopen le!! i mish sch so so so so so much...realliex...awww....the onie thing abt sch tat puts me TOTALLY OFF is the fact tat some dumbass lecturer who cant speak properly is teaching me again...i shall not name who...*pukes blood*

i miss the fsv block..i miss the fsv cage..... =D

*energy's new song is POWER*

feels so darn good to be back in your own home..miss my big big bed..altho i mus admit..i kinda miss having my cousin to crap around with...hehe...

sch's gonna start soon...gonna go sch-stuff-shopping tmr...n hopefully get a new pair of levis...sheesh..i feel i've grown fat over the hols...really....*touches my tummy* oh gosh...horrible horrible...*shakes head* top of my list for new yr resolutions...get thinner..not VERY thin..jus a little bit i happie liao...

fri went for ktv with marine...shiok arh!! we practically went bonkers...totally!! screaming n jumping n wad have u.. haha... really good way to let out all my unhappiness... very high~~~

btw..there's dis restaurent at atrium next to PS..the food there's really good n affordable..esp the baked chilli crab pasta...MY GAWD!~~ heaven~~

then met zhu darius for a movie loh..Mona Lisa Smile...it's seriously a damn good movie...so meaningful...it really speaks alot of art....and i gotta thank yong fui for it..he helped us a bit with the buying of tickets..teehee~

today jus whole day slack at home...sleep watch tv...haha...

tmr will b more fufilling..i know it will.... =)

*i'm totally addicted to clubbing...gonna go SOON...*

firstly...wishing everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR 2004!!
hope 2004 is a better year for everyone!!

wanna know how i spent my new yrs eve? haha..it's really pathetic...just me n marine.. (NO WE R NOT LESBIANS!!)
we went to shop around for some stuff...den went to slack at pacific coffee @ citylink...slack from 7 plus all the way until 12 when it closed...power rite?! haha...slack all the way loh!!! jus sat there and watch the passersby walk...
we met alot of friends walking past also...haha...den 5 mins before the clock struck 12...me n marine went to the toilet...n came out of the cubicles at the same time n wished each other happy new yr...so we literally spent new yr in the toilets of citylink...cool or what!! hahaa...

then we decided to go home taking the last train..met kuan hua on the way so decided to go esplanade take a look..n decided not to when we reached..cos esplanade bloody looked like SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM loh!!! cram like hell!!
so we went to walk around fullerton there...

then after a while we got tired so decided to take the NR home...so gotta walk thru the whole stretch of pubs lah..when we talked thru tat area...felt like we were sm kinda mice n all of the pple around were cats waiting to pounce on us..all holding the foam sprays...so damn scary can!!! n we got sprayed on a few times...until marine got irritated...

then...go home n SLEEP!! until today...

MAYBE might go clubbing tonite..but MOST PROB not...a bit lazy...then nothing is confirmed also...
tmr KTV!! yessss!!! finally..i itchy for a long time liaox....cant wait!! wahahaha....

*yawns* this is one boring way to spend new year... *shrugs*