angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry angry

yes im particularly angry tonites. sigh. frustrated angry oks. i dont like to quarrel with him. i really dont. but i really hate it when he gets all bad tempered when he is tired. i know, army, ocs all very tiring. but i dont tink it takes alot of reply an sms. i dont mind if he doesnt call, but jus drop me a msg to inform so at least i dont wait up the whole nite staring at my hp waiting for it to ring and c the words "Baby Dearest" flashing across the screen?!?! den he gets all pek chek n mutters a quick "bye" and puts down the phone. den he tell me he isnt pissed. the logic pls?

Phews. ive got hot air boiling inside of me. i hate hate hate quarrels. ya ok who loves it yea. but everytime we start getting pissed it always seems like im the only one giving some shit abt it. he probably sleeps it away. sighs.

so i shall go sleep it away too. and i really hope it GOES AWAY.

i would hate to wake up to a mean mean hurting msg.

nitemares pple.

been spending the past 2 days rotting at home. havent stepped out of the house at all. tsks. im a lazy bum. haha! eating and watching tv. *LOL* oh yes, ive been drinking drain water too. cos of my horrible cough tat hasnt got any better in a month. mum n dad brought me to this chinese doctor cos even antibiotics couldnt cure me. hurhur. the medicine they gave me really tastes like DRAIN WATER i tell u. n its bloody expensive. 2 whole cups a day for 5 days. kill me pls. i hold my breath and swallow the medicine n i can still feel it in me throat. its pure bitterness n sourness altogether. i literally claw the table everytime i drink it.

sigh i miss him so much. and being at home for the past 2 days have made me miss him even more. havent spoken to him for 2 nites alrdy cos he always falls asleep while waiting for his officer to go away so that he can call me. gosh i really miss him.

do you believe that there is just ONE person in the world that is perfectly meant for you? the ONE person that fits u like how 2 pieces of the jigsaw fits each other. i believe. cos i believe i have found him.

* i want to spend the rest of my life with you my dear.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!

to my daddy, mummy & bummerbrother.
to my dearly beloved baby dearest.
to my darlingest roomie/bestie/darling sammy.
to my lovely cellulities peiyan & meihui.
to the men in the cellulities life, aaron edwin jacky jamie.
to dearies cheryl & carol.
to my pet zhu & gayboy classmate. (u knw who u r)
to my holey cousin mel mel.
to my baby's bunkmates & their girlfriends diana & peifen.
to aidi valval mindi joanne maisie marine.
to my fsv mates.
to my sim mates.
to my tinybox mates.
and to everyone in my friendster list.

mewwie mewwie chwistmas!!!!!!

happy holidays!!!! *cheers*

pictures time!!!

val aidi nikky @ MindCafe.

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12th - 15th Dec 2005

- Our KL Trip -

in the bus on the way to KL.

room 517 @ Hotel Melia KL

the indoor theme park @ Berjaya Times Square

our first meal of the day in KL - teppanyaki!

baby, me, garfield & odie!

waiting for our movie (Narnia) in the Golden Screens Cinema premiere lounge.

waiting for our yummy claypot rice!

a kiss on a hidden hand.

the yummiest claypot rice ever!

the first ride we took in the Berjaya Times Sq theme park.

the 4 of us (nikky ben peifen derrick)

many loves.

a pic before screaming our heads off on the topgun.

our very messy bed :)

see the reluctance in our eyes? I DONT WANNA GO HOME!!!

there were many other pics (we took 70 over pics) but i dont hav the time to slowly upload everything lah. this will do. haha. looking forward to snap n upload away during xmas.

baby's in ocs now. im told him im looking forward to the commissioning ball. heh heh. he's starting to feel the stress of ocs alrdy. didnt sound too happy on the phone tonite. well, officer or not, he's always my number one. he's the best.

a new hangout place to check out. Mindcafe. its opp parklane. a nice cafe to chill with a bunch of friends and just indulge in crazy boardgames the whole day. the selection of boardgames they hav is insane!! haha. check it out if u hav the time oks?

time to hit the sack. sweet dreams!

HAPPY 5th MONTH ANNI TO ME & MY BABY!!

got back frm my kl trip last nite. so fun! didnt wanna come back. haha. bought a whole lotta stuff and played like hell at the berjaya times square indoor theme park. but the rides weren't as exciting as i expected them to be. maybe cos im a roller coaster freak lar. so those r too mild. haha. not enough for me. BRING EM ON! hehe. disneyland rides r more exciting.

ooh we took mani mani mani pictures. haha. shall post it up when ive got spare time.

bet ive been missed loads when i was in kl. heh!

My All Time Fav Xmas Song

WHAM! - LAST CHRISTMAS

Last Christmas I gave you my heart

But the very next day you gave it away

This year To save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy

I keep my distance But you still catch my eye

Tell me baby Do you recognize me?

Well It's been a year It doesn't surprise me

I wrapped it up and sent it

With a note saying "I love you"I meant it

Now I know what a fool I've been

But if you kissed me nowI know you'd fool me again

A crowded room Friends with tired eyes

I'm hiding from you And your soul of ice

My god I thought you were Someone to rely on

Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart

A man under cover but you tore me apart

Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart

A man under cover buy you tore him apart

Maybe next year I'll give it to someone

I'll give it to someone special.

my baby POPed!!! haha. went to his POP at tekong. now i know how bloody far and how ma fan it is to travel to the stupid island. sheesh. took damn long to go over. anyway went over with his mum, dad and ah ma. as well as his bunkmate, Sherman's gf - Diana. anyway after a whole lotta waiting, finally i c the whole bronco company march in. den the best part, WE CANT SPOT OUR BOYRIENDS. haha. we were looking so hard but we cant even see their bloody faces!! they were wearing the ugly grassy helmets tat covered like half their face la. how to c sia. den after tat was the boring boring speech. den march past. by then, STILL canot spot them. me and diana was like DIE LAAA. den during the short break we went to the toilet. den suddenly i heard the announcer saying tat they were coming back. den i glanced outside all the companys all fall in alrdy. den they announced for parents to go wear the jockey cap for them. me n diana chionged to the parade square. had a damn hard time before we spotted the 2 of them. NEXT TO EACH OTHER. haha! wear cap, take pics, den had to go back to the seating area. den waited for him to take his "luggage" and den go homeee! :)

his dad treated us to dinner that nite at this restaurant at tiong bahru plaza. den after tat me chionged home and headed down to zouk. heh heh. kinda got a bit seh. den baby had to worry about me and chiong down to zouk to pick me up. actually by then i was kinda sober la. but i felt v horrible. like wanna puke but nothing to puke kinda feeling. plus wat was worse was tat it was raining heavily. so i kinda got drenched. and so did baby. sighs. i felt damn bad after that. that he had to come down all the way to pick me up, worry about me and send me home. feel so bad so bad so bad. so sorry baby dearest. dui bu qi la. *baobao* next time i will watch my drinking k? pwomise! *smiles*

baby's at bbq now. received a msg frm him - "go out n see the stars in the sky...its all blinking very nice and bright.." hee. well from this part of sg the stars aint that nice. maybe its cos he's not by my side at this v moment. sighs.

awight. im counting down the days till my lovey trip! *skips arnd* HEE! :)

a new song for u to listen to while u read my silly blog :)
Clay Aiken's Merry Xmas with love. i like!

xmas is coming!! whee hee hee!! i love the xmas spirit!! xmas is my favourite holiday of the year. hehe. NIKKY LOVES XMAS!!!

spent the whole day slacking at home in front of the tv being a couch potato. my goodness. never felt this lazy before lah. anyway, i was watching tong xin yuan 2 and the rainbow connection today and realised, the quality of mediacorp dramas are going downhill. the last good drama i watched were probably the champion (ren wo ao you) and jing zhong ren. tong xin yuan 2 has a horrible horrible storyline and incorrigible over the top acting from the cast. and the rainbow connection? sucky china actors n actresses who cant act properly and speak with a horrible accent. wth did they find so many zhong guo rens anyway. and jeanette aw's hairstyle is awful!! frm the start till the end. wats with the maggie mee hair la! mediacorp needs to work on their scripts and casting pple alrdy.

9th dec is coming!! wheeee!! haha. been thinking about it everynite. everynite before i sleep! hehe. wed is my turn to go tekong sia. going for my boy's POP. haha. shall c him all sud sud. i tink i will be laughing to myself from the audience sia. *grins*

9th dec is drawing nearer n nearer. but it still seems SOOOO darn far away. sighs.

hmmm, wat shall we do for christmas? haha! i want a romantic sweetest ever christmas this year okay? heehees.

just simply cos *iloveyou.

to you my forgetful baby,

it may not have meant alot to you but it meant everything to me. i know smtimes i tend to be a little bit over sensitive about some stuff, and i apologise for that. im sorry too for the times i made you pissed. but all i want is to feel that you love me just as much as u did from the start. my friends told me that we girls always see dates as a very impt thing, but to u guys, its just DATES. jus another day on the calender. i guess thats true to a certain extent aint it? well, maybe my reaction was abit over the board tonite. and i sincerely feel that u felt very bad for forgetting. forgive you! hee. no worries baby. i love you still. *smile*
(however if u ever forget again i will skin u alive!)

i love your silly-ness.
i love your lazy-ness.
i love your greedy-ness.
i love talking to you everynight.
i love hearing your voice. (even if u talk abt yr armylife)
i love the way u kiss me gdnite.
i love the way u hug me to sleep.
i love the way u feed me medicine.
i love the way u take my hand to cross the road.

i love the way u make me fall in love with u everyday.

*muacks* :)